TW: MENTIONS / IMPLICATIONS OF SELF HARM, SUICIDE, SEXUAL ASSAULT

Where was my guardian angel

when i was crying

on the floor

begging to be normal?

Where was my guardian angel

when I was lying in bed

debating if I

should take my life?

Where was my guardian angel

when i held a blade to my wrist

and cut until i ran

out of room?

Where was my guardian angel

when i was everyone else’s

and i needed...

Your wings wrap around my body

Through mists of

despair,

Tears rolling down my cheeks,

Yet—you ease them with care.

Your heart,

Stained with thick velvet blood,

Suffocating your limbs.

But still you smile,

Mending the wounds I carved into my skin.

You shield me

From the knives

That tear through your

Soul.

Knowing,

I wouldn’t ever manage alone.

Your pulse keeps time of the rhythm

of my breat...

I lay thy burdens,

Upon your shoulders.

So they may take flight,

And leave the earth behind.

You may trust your peace on me,

So your wings can unfurl.

And feel the gentle love,

Of the ones you never see.

Our chests are lighter,

From troubles shared.

I know you are a fighter,

But even angels should be spared.

They should live to feel the air,

Under their wings.

Brought to us to bear,

The anxiety...

I remember the first time I heard the phrase, “guardian angels.” I was sitting on my bed and there were tears in my eyes. I was only six and my heart was full of pain.

“Everyone has them. My guardian angel is my dad. He passed away when I was little too— just like you,” Grandma said, holding my hand. “And now you have one. Your momma will always look down on you and make sure you’re okay.”

My fa...

I’ll Wait

I’ll sit and wait

Each Saturday at eleven

I’ll sit and wait

For you

You who needs reprieve

You who is drowning

You who needs a friend

In cold breezy weather

On warm sunny days

In the downpour of rain

And even when it starts to snow

You’ll find me waiting

Sitting on the bench

Under the shade of the trees

I’ll wait

I’ll sit and wait

Each Saturday at eleven

I’ll sit and wait

For you...

Be my halo,

Be my wings,

Save my life,

When hell sings,

Be my sleeve,

To wipe off weeps,

Be my wings,

As anguish seeps,

Fire ablaze,

Slaving for days,

Sweat on my brow,

I am not brave.

I do not fight,

Nor do I take flight,

So save me from

What isn’t daylight.

Be my halo,

Be my wings,

Save my life,

When hell sings,

Don’t let me die,

As days go by,

And I stay stuck,

In depths of my mind,

Free ...

People tell me to be carefull

To look before stepping ahead

And to think before acting

People tell me I should fear

I should plan everything

Never risk anything...

And for the longest time,

I did it

I lived carefully and peacefully

Worrying about even walking

I didn't dance because I could get hurt

I ignored strangers because they could be frauds

I stayed home because anything could happen

B...

Somedays pass with out a price to pay.

Others dont.

Somedays I just sit and lay

Others I want to kms but won't

Life is never one way.

Its always the others.

Let me be fine.

And not have to hold back the pencil to my skin.

For her

For them

For all of them

Multiple reasons to stay.

But not enough to prevent damage from the past and soon future.

Keep trying I say to myself constantly

"Itll be over ...

A savior

In accidents

A helper

For decisions

Beautiful

To most

Unreal

To those who don’t believe

To me,

Soothing as music

Beautiful as the sky

Helpful as a broom

Calming as that apple smell

Remember

You have to believe it to see it

Not the other way around...

Now I lay me down to sleep

Vaporize into mist under my sword

I slay the demons of silver and gold.

I pray the Lord my soul to keep

In the Dreamscape it is dark and cold.

An angel of terror beats its wings.

Iron feathers cut through night.

And if I die before I wake

My guardian of eyes faith and might.

A demon digs claws in ...