Broken heart.

Shattered world.

There was no one.

Until there was you…

Held your hand when your heart hurt.

I lied for you, a part of me died for you.

I thought once love found me I’d be safe.

I could stop running, put down the knife.

I sat in silence.

Shaken fear, vain.

Was alone with shadows.

Fighting the demons I couldn’t see.

I needed someone to have my back.

Not someone who judged who I am....

Crowded places.

Too many faces.

Always working.

Constantly hurting.

I just want this to be over…

Clock’s ticking.

Body’s kicking.

Blood is dripping.

His skin is ripping.

Choke, hands around your neck.

Evil in my bones.

Shadows like drones.

Fight to live another day.

Weaker, dead bodies lay.

I’m so sorry.

Relization sinks in.

I’m running from this sin.

Of me and you…

Tell me what to ...

Slit wrists, crimson trickles…

Laying on the bathroom floor.

Slumped against the wall.

Somewhere in between—

You know, here and there.

There’s a certain emptyness…

A certain quietness that takes.

Like when you’re just between

falling asleep and being awake.

Where pain is no longer lingering.

And your eyes are so, so tired.

Your head is heavy.

Bones weary.

There’s a feeling of being comple...

Funny.

There’s this thing.

Like… inside me.

Not… not in like…

Like a dirty way.

I mean it’s there.

But it’s…

Can you shut up?

I’m trying to talk.

I just want to be normal.

I mean… as much as normal is.

As cool as that is.

** The crackle of the old phone cuts over and the criminal blinks behind the smeared plexiglass. His voice is placid, lips moisened with shiny spittle. He holds t...

If only I could see him. I mean face-to-face. Setting money aside bit by bit will work, but never as fast as I want it to happen.

What if I’m too late?

What if he forgets?

What if I’m not enough?

What if he changes his mind?

…What if he already has?

If only I could tell the other him everything. Let him know that I’m not happy. Sure, I smile and joke. But that’s my defensive layer. Y...

They’ll call me—

They’ll call me royalty.

…

Listen to

Goddess

By: Xana

I know you heard what I said.

These shadows by my side.

Sharp click of my heels.

Quick snap of my fingers.

Down on your knees serve up.

I love the way you fall:

bow when you’re scared.

This is what a queen looks like.

Vicious, threatening, demanding.

A queen who craves someone

brave enough to stalk her.

Som...

Knives out.

Cutting throats.

Gutting folks.

Counting blessings:

One, two—

Three, you.

Dead or alive.

Bodies floating.

Noose hanging.

Lovely smile;

Grinning!

I want you.

Nah, only you.

Dead or alive, ah.

Either will do me.

Hold ‘em tight.

Force a laugh.

One, two,

I see you.

Three, four,

Open the door.

And I want you.

I want you.

Dead or alive.

I said dead or alive.

‘Cause when d...

We just sit. Feet dangling from the pier’s edge. I lean forward and look into the dark water, at the sky reflected on the still surface. How my head is perfectly framed by the glowing aura of light and dark. At this time, the water resembles a mirror laid flat to mimic the slow moving of the clouds.

Homochitto is beautiful. The sky this particular morning is lit up so bright, painted in those gor...

Screaming.

Our world is crashing.

Dreaming.

What could we have been?

Beaming.

We use to be so happy…

Gleaming.

Another tear down my cheek.

I miss this.

I miss us.

I miss it.

I’d never amount to anything without you. This pain in my chest is dragging me under. Fighting just to stay alive, it hurts. Long nights, laying in bed I wonder if this is you too.

Do you fall asleep easily without t...

Burning buildings and broken hearts.

Beaten black and blue with regret.

He’s standing over me, angry eyes.

Neck is open, his fists around it.

He shakes me, demands to know.

Blood on his knuckles, I feel pain.

Holes in the wall, fixtures shaking.

His hair uncombed, eyes with evil.

The abuse I survived for years.

The stinging hurt in my gut.

I know what comes next.

So I take another blow.

The cha...