Knives out.

Cutting throats.

Gutting folks.

Counting blessings:

One, two—

Three, you.

Dead or alive.

Bodies floating.

Noose hanging.

Lovely smile;

Grinning!

I want you.

Nah, only you.

Dead or alive, ah.

Either will do me.

Hold ‘em tight.

Force a laugh.

One, two,

I see you.

Three, four,

Open the door.

And I want you.

I want you.

Dead or alive.

I said dead or alive.

*...

We just sit. Feet dangling from the pier’s edge. I lean forward and look into the dark water, at the sky reflected on the still surface. How my head is perfectly framed by the glowing aura of light and dark. At this time, the water resembles a mirror laid flat to mimic the slow moving of the clouds.

Homochitto is beautiful. The sky this particular morning is lit up so bright, painted in those gor...

Screaming.

Our world is crashing.

Dreaming.

What could we have been?

Beaming.

We use to be so happy…

Gleaming.

Another tear down my cheek.

I miss this.

I miss us.

I miss it.

I’d never amount to anything without you. This pain in my chest is dragging me under. Fighting just to stay alive, it hurts. Long nights, laying in bed I wonder if this is you too.

Do you fall asleep easily without t...

Burning buildings and broken hearts.

Beaten black and blue with regret.

He’s standing over me, angry eyes.

Neck is open, his fists around it.

He shakes me, demands to know.

Blood on his knuckles, I feel pain.

Holes in the wall, fixtures shaking.

His hair uncombed, eyes with evil.

The abuse I survived for years.

The stinging hurt in my gut.

I know what comes next.

So I take another blow.

The cha...

Everywhere I go, a shadow follows me.

Try as I might, I can’t make others see.

I’m begging, I just want to be free.

I’m tired of trying to win this fight.

They always come out.

No matter the light,

No matter the night.

There’s always something close behind.

Running, chasing, I’m out of my mind.

Tired and sleepy, I just want to find…

Reaching out, into the murk.

Outwards, demons lurk.

_Someone...

Oh, the things I would tell him

if he’d just understand for once.

The things I’d say if he’d believe me!

I have a confession…

It’s deep and it’s dark.

My favorite necklace is your right hand.

When you say you’ve got goosebumps.

Favorite noise is when you sigh my name.

I have a confession…

It hurts and I like it.

I still love your voice and your accent.

I’m still very much in love with you.

Our...

Crafted with care.

This anger laid bare.

Come close if you dare.

This is all handmade.

Drops a dripping blade.

These scars never fade.

Screaming, hit a wall.

Laughing, demons tall.

Running, catch me if I fall.

Pain, I’m bleeding.

Growing hurt, seedling.

Annoying, like a weedling.

Deranged, whispers in the night.

Clawing, rushing toward the light.

Flailing, I won’t give up a fight.

I’m not nor...

They say, "Money makes the world go 'round.”

…

But honestly? For me, it's soap suds, candle wax, and tangled balls of yarn. Sure, I could chase Wall Street dreams, but l'd rather chase the perfect lavender swirl, or crochet that one stitch for the 47th time until it finally looks cute.

Do I get rich? Nope.

Do I get clay and fuzz everywhere? Absolutely.

Do I wake up excited to make beautiful lit...

People ask how I’d paint myself.

It’s not how I’d paint myself…

Rather, it’s how I actually am.

It’s the thoughts in my head.

The way I move, shadows casting.

It’s who I am on the inside, my mind.

It’s the things I turn over in my head.

I’d paint me in blood.

Red, crimson dripping.

Big brushes, fine boys.

Stick shift, mustangs.

Hand on the wheel,

Smirking your way.

Shades on, look my way.

I’m big...

My head is pounding.

Sweet adrenaline running.

Sharpening my blades,

Eyes sharp like daggers.

Coldness seeps into my veins,

Anger like a mad lioness takes hold.

The monster within me takes shape.

I stand taller, beaten but stronger.

When life gets you down,

They say stand up quick.

But this crushing weight

pushes down on me.

I lift it high like a gymnist.

Steel bars across my throat.

Arms sor...