"Your parents or any of your stupid people have 24 hours to get you. If not your mine to keep"

"Yea yea"

The sick feeling in my stomach made me feel like I was being stabbed. i lay in the middle of the woods In some sort of sound proof bunker. I want my Angelica. The one who prepared me to find her. But will she find me.

I could almost feel how nervous she was when I told her that I was going out...

Just a normal walk.

I only wanted a normal walk.

How did I end up here?

The 7 year old girl didnt know she would be holding a blade to her wrist in a year.

The 7 year old girl it was her birthday.

She spent it alone.

Listening to "seven years old"- Lucas Graham

Feeling like the coolest kid

But then wondering why no one was there.

Who left a kid alone.

The alone kid.

Walks through it

Some time la...

Where is my happiness

When do i get to feel?

Huh?

My dad looked at my bloody arm and said what happend

I fucking said I fell

AND BITCH I LEFT TO EAT

TO EAT!

and you cut yourself

Well so do it bitch

Fuck yourself

Its not cool to hurt me

WE COULD HAVE JUST TALKED

BUT NO I CANT TRUST YOU

YOU BROKE MY PROMISE AND YOU BROKE MY LIFE

I LOVE YOU BUT I ALSO HATE YOU.

You notice I cant "get a grip on my em...

In a world full of roses, you would be a lili.

A lili.

Another flower.

But more better.

Roses have thorns.

Lilies do not .

They are different but they are like the shining stars in an indigo sky.

I am your butterfly to your flower.

Your like a glow of lilies in the foggy sky.

I am yours.

You are mine.

My dear lili.

I hate seeing you cry.

But when the tears of love fall.

I cant help but giggle.

My ...

I HATE IT I

I HATE MYSELF

I SUCK

I blame my fucking issues on my problems.

Damn getting out of bed is hard but hurting people isnt

"Dying is easy living is harder" -Hamilton

Man I hurt myself what do you expect me to do.

Im just a....

Problem

1 friend yesterday

1 today gone.

1 more.

NO I CANT LOOSE YOU

DAMMIT I FUCKED IP

I CANT DO SHIT

I CANT TAKE IT

dont be surprised when im dead.

"Fuck you...

Im losing feeling.

What?

How is that possible.

I cant cry?

Tears dont fall out of my eyes?

I haven't cried for 3 months.

I've wanted too

Because it felt somewhat like a habit.

Im well aware im not okay.

But this messed up?

No no i can't hurt my self.

I may want to be like her but she's broken her promise many times.

I am not going to be like you.

You've hurt me by hurting yourself.

And when I lost...

Everywhere i look it's you.

The point is always well you...

In the clouds I see you.

I want to be you.

You hurt me by hurting yourself

You didnt know.

You did what I did 16 days ago

Its fine I'll have to live with it.

I wish I could step on my box

(Refrence from I love you comments)

I wish my box could help yours.

I might relapse but it fine

Let my box collapse so that you know your mine.

You dont...

Every time I look in the clouds i see us.

But never together.

I've seen you only once since we met.

But a million times on call.

Do I need to cancel my plans for you.

Id cancel my life for you a plan is the smallest I can do.

Like the boxes on my floor we can break easily.

I got stepped on.

You were my tape

You healed me.

But I will never be the same.

Than you got stepped on.

You didnt know what t...

Pains come and go

Everyone loves me

Yet im not their first choice

At least im loved i guess

But why love me?

You have your best friend(s)

Im a backup friend.

And my bestfriend has other people.

Im glad she does.

But she makes me jealous

She's so pretty

Funny

She's a memory

Someone you'd want to remember

Never remove.

How did I get her.

She got me

She should leave

I suck.

I WANT TO KILL MYSELF.

...

My life is rotting like a flower.

A flower may rotting and still smell sweet.

My bestfriends want to hurt themselves.

So do i.I.

Yet I have to act fine.

Im good at it.

Because when people make me "happy"

I cant stop.

Like I can't stop hurting me

6 days 17 hours since.

Keep me away from pencils.

But then how will I write?

Im rotting like a flower.

But all you can see is the sweetness of my smell

R...