Feeling known

Feeling over grown

Over thrown

Feeling known

Feeling to much

Feeling alive

Feeling the thrive

Feeling known

Feeling enough

Feeling rough

Feeling burnt out

Feeling known

Feeling gone

Feeling wrong

Feeling like the lyrics in a song

Feeling like losing ping-pong

Feeling off

Feeling gone

Feeling none

Feeling Feeling which one to chose...

Feeling.

No more light

Just gone

Away...

I could see the fear in matties eyes

"What do i do"mattie says as we face back to back

"Try" i say As I show her my phone 217 miles per hour tornado thats recking the city(about 350 kilometers) (I think i guessed)

I could see the purple shine in her hands.

I didnt have that.i had green. The average dragon color. Along with orange

It was 3:17 a.m.

We could see the tornado

Ruining people's homes kil...

"Fun"

"What"i ask as we restock food in the market

"You know how were closing the tower today?"Michelle asks

"Of course I do"i reply a bit offended

"Look" Michelle proceeds to show me a tornado advisory to proceed with caution. Because their is a tornado that may come straight to us in 6 hours.

"That's looks bad"i say biting my nails out of anxiety

"Exactly" Michelle giggle

"What are you on about...

Why does it affect me

But I have you?

The burning in my stomach gives me the urge to grab the pencil and stab my self

I wanna kill my self and I dont

So the best I could do is hurt myself

I tried to give you sighns but it seems like you dont understand

And no I dont wanna say it out loud

It makes me nervous

Not in texts either

My parents check those

Preferably in something like roblox

Where my w...

"Hes awake"someone shouted

I'm laying here completely clueless

"Sir can you hear me?"

"Just fine"i say in a sigh

"Micheal you were in a coma for almost 4 years"

"Where's kayla"

"Kayla is just fine just she doesnt know you honey"

Doesnt know me?

Those words kept repeating in my head

Doesnt know me?

What do you mean?

Til it came over me.

Memory loss.

Tears run down my face as I try to think of any ...

"Kill me"

"What"

"Kill me"

I look at her like she's insane

"Why would i"

The scilence took over the night sky

As we hung our feet over the ledge

"Micheal why do you care"

"I mean why wouldn't I. Their is so much i love about your my dear kayla."

"But I thought you love maddie, Michael.?"

"I do love Maddie she's the love of my life doesnt mean I can't hang out with you"i say confused

The ligh...

Funny isnt it

To make me cry

To leave me out

And if it's happening now

And school hasn't even started

Its all going to come crumbling

Funny isnt it

To leave me out

"Oh but it's weird"

"I didn't think you'd want to"

Im not fucking stupid

All this damn shit

Kill me someone kill me

I took your advice

I won't kill my self

I'll let you

Would you?

will you?

Like the roses our friendship seemed funny...

Days pass

Fuck every day will pass

But what if I want no more days

I dont want a future

Someday I will die

But what if I want to now

Tomorrow is a thing

What if I wanted no Tomorrow

What would happen then

Why do roses have thorns

Why are they so beautiful

But fuck they hurt

Kind of like the fact you hurt me

Not from being mean

But for trying to be there

But on the days I want you truly

Its a...

How come as soon as you come back from camp your so happy.

Im happy for you.

But am I the problem?

The one week you dont see me you get happy?

And now...

Your back to being sad.

Am I the problem?

Should I leave?

Should I kill myself-

So you dont?

Do i even help you in any way

All the seconds I face time you

Its wasted?

Then you go and write a story that your sad as if I dont try to call you 20 tim...

Everything good comes with something bad

Like...

Roses have thorns.

There's always a chance

Why

How come?

Like...

Swimming in an ocean but there's sharks.

Every good day comes with a bad day

Your time is coming..

Be brave...