Everywhere i look it's you.

The point is always well you...

In the clouds I see you.

I want to be you.

You hurt me by hurting yourself

You didnt know.

You did what I did 16 days ago

Its fine I'll have to live with it.

I wish I could step on my box

(Refrence from I love you comments)

I wish my box could help yours.

I might relapse but it fine

Let my box collapse so that you know your mine.

You dont seem like your trying.

Its fine I wasnt either I only always ended up crying. The tears reminded me of the streams of blood on my thighs.

You wonder why I dont wear shorts.

I love you but why do I feel so blue all the time.

Did I do something wrong.

Pain is the only way I feel. I wish I was 3 again.

Clueless and peaceful.

My parents aren't real family family isnt your relatives it's the ones you trust.

Its only you. And my neighbor. And some kid i dont even talk to anymore.

All of the rest broke me.

Please dont me like they did.

I wanna go

Go home

My real home

My version of a afterlife

No heaven or hell

A place I created so I wouldn't have stress

I manipulate myself to make me belive im fine.

To tell you I love myself but it doesnt feel right.

I dont feel right.

The first time I've cried in front of someone.

For a Genuine reason not me just being dramatic per usual. Pain is what I earn for all of it. But I want it yet I dont?

You say let me cut myself this once?

Pain is like a drug.

Instead of physical pain what i wanted you gave me mental pain.

The kind where you cry the kind that keeps you up at night.

You not only hurt yourself and lost your little streak that was a lie that I would belive.

Im so damn trusting

You not only did that you broke you promise.

So I will break mine you'll see or hear.

Trust me.

With those scissors.

As I trusted your streak.

(It was a lie)

Im breaking my promise.

Instead of staring at the exit im walking to it.

Falling for it.

Almost like how I fell for you.