Somedays pass with out a price to pay.

Others dont.

Somedays I just sit and lay

Others I want to kms but won't

Life is never one way.

Its always the others.

Let me be fine.

And not have to hold back the pencil to my skin.

For her

For them

For all of them

Multiple reasons to stay.

But not enough to prevent damage from the past and soon future.

Keep trying I say to myself constantly

"Itll be over one day"

That line haunts me

I hate it

But I hate myself?

I want to love myself mainly for her

Theo.

And all the other people who have popped up throughout my life.

The smallest things help

Today I might have had to pull the pencil away from my skin.

But it was still improvement

Its like she's a guardian angel on my shoulder saying "love yourself, because I do too."

I love her so I love me too

As you sit alone I sit with you dear.

I love you.

More and most.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Im trying.

Im trying...