I haven’t had the motivation to write

I love it so much

But ideas are not spewing

And time is not allowing

I am sorry for not reading

The beauty you all write

But I lack the motivation

But have plenty of time

It makes me feel guilty

Leaving others behind

When its been the other way around

My whole entire life...

Punch

Hit

Slash

Gouge

Tear

Kick

Rip

Hurt

Shread

Rip to two

Punch the gut

Slash the tires

Gouge the eyes

Tear your flesh

Kick the pail

Hurt the mass

Shread the live...

Its so easy to get lost

In a place you don’t belong

Where you don’t know where the doors lead

Or if the windows open

I find its far too simple

To lose your compass

And not know which way is north

And be so stressed your heart can’t tell you

Its not so easy to retrack your steps

When every road has the same shrubbery

And every hallway looks the same

Its so easy to get lost

Whe you have no inten...

Does it hurt?

Does it really hurt?

Isn’t this how everyone feels?

Aren’t you being a bit dramatic?

Aren’t you to young for this?

I wish I knew the answers

To all the questions people ask

Because yes it hurts

Fuck it hurts

But i don’t know how to tell you

So I just sit in bed

And cry

I wish i could say i am too young for this

But its all too common to be sick

And you may say it didnt used to be ...

Song: Anthems for a 17 year old girl

I saw the Tv glow too

You are not alone

Let it shine brightly

Lighting up your home

I first saw the TV glow when I was 11

Because my friends lied that theirs glowed

For attention

And I wanted to be like them

To be cool and fit in

But I was heped to realize

It wasn’t who I was

Not yet at least

So I unplugged the TV

The glow was artificial

And honestly

I...

Don’t you love me

Like I love you

Don’t you want to wrap your arms around me

To pull me close

To hold my hand

Or do you love me in another way

Would you rather

Write me poems

And songs

And sweet little stories

Do you find love better conveyed

In shiny jewelry

And handmade gifts

Would you rather show it

By taking me on a date

Doing the laundry

Or cooking dinner

Or would you really

Just rathe...

Everything is just as its meant to be

Thats what they all tell me

Thats there is a plan for me

That it will pass eventually

But they dont understand the word chronic

By their logic

I’ll be in pain for eternity

Or even past the grave

Possibly

They don’t belive its real

So they say its ok

But its not

When i have to say

“I showered today, so i can’t move tomorrow”

Maybe not everything is as its...

I am quenching the thirst

I am biting the bullet

I am taking a stand

Who am I

I am not a man

But a woman

Who is not afraid to speak her mind

I am quenching the thirst

Of the broken and the bruised

Because i allow my wing for shelter

And provide a safe warm word

I hope what I do helps

Even just a little,

Would you let me know,

Am I quenching your thirst?...

Paramore, Decode, “How did we get here”

How did we get here

Stranded at sea

Galaxies apart

You and me

Do you even care anymore

At least like you used to

Do i cross your mind

Or am I far away

How did we get here

How did we get here

From you holding my hand

To me holding my own

How did we end up

So far apart

when we used to be so close

How did we get here

I look at you in front of me

And all i...

I want to be totally repulsive

Unloveable

Untouchable

My mind whispers to me

I want to be alone

Because what are the chances

That of all the people in the world

someone would choose me

shut up

Shut Up

SHUT UP

I tell my mind

I am worth the love

The sweat

The blood

The tears

But why would you want someone to sacrifice for you

_Why would you want somebody else to...