TW: MENTIONS / IMPLICATIONS OF SELF HARM, SUICIDE, SEXUAL ASSAULT

Where was my guardian angel

when i was crying

on the floor

begging to be normal?

Where was my guardian angel

when I was lying in bed

debating if I

should take my life?

Where was my guardian angel

when i held a blade to my wrist

and cut until i ran

out of room?

Where was my guardian angel

when i was everyone else’s

and i needed

my own?

Where was my guardian angel

when i woke up screaming

my memories becoming dreams

feeling his hands all over me?

Where was my guardian angel

when i needed

to be protected

from myself?

Where was my guardian angel

when I was breaking

into a million pieces

alone?