I get tired and think Im lagging behind

Fatigue in my body and fog in my mind

Today wasn't my best kind of day

Deep down inside I don't feel ok

Not ok with the constant tiredness

Not ok with how I performed today

But hey it's ok

Just breathe

Wouldn't you believe how hard it gets when you give up

Times where the well is dry but you push through and above it all you lift up

So sure you may have a...

I don’t know how to say goodbye,

How to let go….

Of your dimples that you can’t seem to hide when you look at me.

Or those brown eyes turned golden in the sunlight.

I can’t let go…

Of how tightly yet softly you would hold on to me.

Or the way you would tell me I’m the prettiest girl in the world.

I can’t let go…

Of the way you’ve always comforted me.

Or made me so happy each and every d...

May 2009

Clean up takes place near my bed,

But for what seems like the first time

In the past few gruelling hours,

Nobody is about but me and her,

My little bundle wrapped in fresh linen

Up close to my chest, smelling just

Like me, in subtle whiffs of warm honey

That I am so glad only I can experience

This up close, so inviting that a small,

Strange thought comes to me,

One where I could not let a...

When I was young I couldn’t wait

For life to change, to hurry up

I tried to make things go my way

I forced my will, I filled my cup

So many times I lost control

Of what I thought should be my choice

I couldn’t see or accept the truth

That I was but one man, one voice

In the clamor of this world, and in our heads

It’s easy to forget we’re not alone

Caught up in our wanting and regretting

Loo...

What’s this?

You take the bullet and I’ll take the bruises that won’t heal because one of those lasts forever and it’s not the bullet.

The bruises will take their time and toll on you. They’ll wear you down. They’ll make you wish you chose the bullet. So I’ll take the bruises for you, the ones that don’t heal. The bruises that cause grief, the kind of grief that drags its nails across your chest, ...

I board the train to somewhere,

Destination is unknown.

In he walks - big hat on hair,

I look up from my phone.

This cowboy far from his home,

In the wild Wild West.

A stranger to this biome,

My heart flutters in my chest.

He takes a seat across from me,

Pulls out a deck of cards.

Shuffles them quite comfortably,

Then cuts the pile in half.

“Want to gamble?” he says slyly,

“Do you want to play ...

Talk to me while I suffocate

Look me in the eyes while I die

I am above you but only physically

Realistically I’m far below

6 feet to be exact

Watch me as the pain carves out my very being

Until I am no longer the person you remember

Go down this path of blood

Look at all the people nailed to slabs of wood

Cruel and unusual torture

For someone supposedly innocent

Watch me as the weigh...

Everything’s wrong,

Where’ve you all gone?

I’m all alone, this isn’t right.

I’m tired, worn out and losing my fight.

I needed you, more than ever.

That’s what I thought before I got clever.

Little did I know, He was there all along

While I went by, wondering what the heck’s wrong.

I only needed one man in my life,

And now I’ve got you, I no longer have strife.

I truly wish I’d found you ea...

In all my daydreams’ dining rooms,

you are folding pancakes.

With flour on your pajama legs—

the hollows hushed with Mandrakes.

All our neighbors don’t like Nazis.

News headlines are mundane.

As the early morning paper

grows and softens in the rain.

In all of my made-up bedrooms,

You always make your bed.

With a Wolfhound warm within it

or lightning bugs at your head.

Cr...

The utter devotion in your actions.

The love in your eyes when you meet mine.

The way you hold my hand in yours.

The way your hair goes up in a messy bun.

The way you smile up at me like everything was meant to be.

But what would they say if we were in public?

Two girls showing display of affection.

But you seem to be unaffected.

No cares in the world as you continue to love.

Like these socie...