“It should have been me!”

“It should have been me!”

I cry and cry as I try and fall asleep.

They’re pulling me away, 

pushing us apart,

shattering the pieces of my already-broken heart.

They’re dragging me off.

I dig in my heels and I grip on so tight.

I promise I didn’t leave you without a fight.

I remember your touch, 

the feel of your skin,

still warm beneath my fingertips.

I remember your...

“You make me wish I liked women!” Elaina shouts, the words spitting out of her mouth before she is sure they even make sense. Her feet carry her closer to the front door, through the kitchen, but his voice stops her and makes her turn around.

“Do you?” Derek replies. His voice is bellowing, shaking the house with every syllable.

“Maybe now I do,” Elaina shoots back, even knowing it’s a lie. Whi...

What was real and what was fake?

Was it all a big mistake?

Everything is falling apart

because it’s all messed up from the start.

Walls shame, foundations crack,

decrepit like a ramshackle shack.

**A relationship built on lies**

**is destined to surely die. **

Clouds cover the skies, rain pulls at your eyes,

but nothing hurts as much as little words turned lies.

Your world is flipped upside ...

**TW: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, blood**

This time, I won’t.

But it only hurts if you let it.

I’m laying on the ground,

a lost soul waiting to be found.

I want to cry, but I don’t make a sound.

The ceiling is spinning,

and I’m never winning.

Getting through the day is an uphill battle

that I _always_ lose.

I don’t know where to begin,

this awful feeling is eating me from within.

I can scre...

_“Better, better, now let’s try this again,” Ada says, grabbing Wink’s wrists and gently putting them back in position._

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_“I don’t get the point of this,” Wink whines, shoulders slumped, “Fists are your thing, Ada. I have this.”_

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_Wink twirls her fingers, swirling teal-colored smoke around them. She manipulates them into figures, dancing and spinning through the air until they disappear._

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Such a high price

the roll of a dice

A fickle game of chance

a deadly little dance

The stakes are high,

higher than the sky

Is this risk worth it?

You could always cheat

Just don’t get caught,

go and shoot your shot

It can be our secret,

so don’t you fret

I won’t tell a soul,

it’s all under my control

The reward, it’s so good

If I were you, I would

So take a gamble,

let’s hope this doesn’...

I turn and turn, ‘neath

the soft Summer burn

Listening to the soft hums,

I dance to the nonexistent drums

The songs and the beauty of it all;

Of Springtime before the Fall

The Flowers sing praises up to the Sky,

beholden upon a deity nigh

The Sky calls down with mighty threats,

telling of all of our regrets

The Grass cries ballads of broken dreams,

twirling lost through water in winding st...

The smell of sweet nectar, dew on the grass

The laughter of children, the clink of a glass

The warm heat of summer, thick in the air

The innocent smile, spread without a care

A glance and a grin, not very discreet

A giggle and a blush, their eyes meet

A taste lingers on the tongue, bittersweet

A hand reaches for the other, complete

She’s pulled up for a dance, in a daze

He’s looking at her, hold...

It wasn’t her, it wasn’t me.

Don’t lie, I saw you flee,

flee from all of this misery.

We all knew who, so let me ask you;

“What did _you_ do?”

Your mother is dead,

your father in a hospital bed.

Look at all of this blood you have shed.

None of us knew, please let me ask you;

“_What_ did you do!?”

Now you’re on the stand,

answering questions on command.

You say it wasn’t from your hand.

Tell m...

You left me.

I was all alone.

But you “had to be free”?

I was forced to grow up.

At seven, I was an adult.

Wearing a mask like makeup

While my classmates ran for game,

I ran to survive.

Oh look, I’m still alive?

Did it catch you by surprise?

That I am still here.

That I had not met my demise?

You've come back,

but I no longer need you.

This is my payback.

Oh you need me now?

How the tables h...