_(Hope you have a great day and happy pride!)_

I love you,

But

Why must we

Always talk about

_Me? _

I care about

You,

But

Do you care about

_Yourself?_

I know you

Want me to

Get better,

But

What about

_You?_

I want you

To heal too,

But

You always act like

You’re fine,

_Why?_

__

I want to help you,

But

You are so gosh darn independent,

_Why is that?_

I love you,

But****

****

**_How are_**...

Just an inventor in a workshop

Helping care for my family

My father dead

My mother sick

My brother a manipulator

I feel a person in me

Their soul i cant place

But yet I get dreams of their past life

Their death

Their thoughts

Their feelings

Everything

But yet I can’t place

This person

Even though my favorite flower is their flower

I am missing a part of myself

But that is just

The p...

I tried to be kind

But it always turned to anger

But then I met you

The anger replaces with jealousy

But I was always kind to you

How could you never see

You thiught I was pathetic or naive

But I tried

I thought you were ok

But in reality you needed a friend that is kind

Not one with anger that needs to be released

So then

When you turned to anger

I turned to good

You wanted to die

Cause...

I wish you could remain exactly how you are in my memory;

Tinted in a perfect rose gold.

But instead you are slowly fading;

Tainted by colors I don’t want to see.

I wish I didn’t have to see.

I wish I didn’t have to know.

And maybe that’s why I’m so scared to reach out,

Scared to try to catch up with the people who made me happiest.

I want to, I really do.

I miss them so, so badly.

But every t...

Work a nine to five

Contemplate at night

Dripping faucets’ water

Is your favourite lonely pleasure

Give up all your dreams

Swim in depth so deep

Pay your bills each week

It’s just drippy faucets’ water

Forget to pray to God

Who cares, he’s not in charge

Tithes are for the weak

Liks dripping faucets’ water

Evaluate your mental state

Therapy costs too much anyways

You are drippy faucets’ water

Y...

I’m like a black cat

Looking down on people

Unamused

I want attention

But will not ask

Seen as bad luck

If you cross my path

It’s selfish to want

To be so needy

I want your presence

In the room I sit

Maybe light chatter

That’s all I ask

It’s a lot I know

But one day I’ll find

Someone who sees me

Even though I’m greedy

And loves me so much

That I think

“Am I dreaming?”...

Staring in the mirror

I raise my hand

The girl in the mirror raises her hand

I touch my face, I feel my fingers against my cheek

The girl in the mirror does the same

I recognize that I’m touching something, that I’m feeling something

But I’m not really there.

I stare into my own eyes

My reflection does nothing.

I know I should feel something

So why don’t I?

Why have all my emotions left me?

It ...

It started as a song

But I’ve lost the melody.

Sitting at the grown up table,

_Is_ anyone stable?

I talked with the faces

Washed my hands with the broken flower vases.

Sat with strangers on those stone-hard benches

Followed His tears in those life-worn trenches,

No one really wants to see over their neighbors fences.

Well

The absence of warmth. That’s how I’d describe it. The echo and the...

From as long as I can remember I was broken, forgotten and unseen,

From all the ones that were supposed to be there for me,

Dad always leaving me on the floor crying and bleeding,

From all the abuse and meaningless beatings,

My Mothers blank stare that continued without a care cut deeper than anything,

And my Brother and Sister we’re nothing but bitches always lying and deceiving,

So much for the ...

Is it real,

All those looks of admiration?

Or is it a game,

To see how hard she falls?

Is it real,

That you want to know her name?

Or is it a game,

So you can tell them who it was who fell?

Is it real,

Going out of your way to be near her, to see her?

Or is it a game?

Tell, please,

Is it real, or is it a game?...