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🩵💛🩷 🖤🩶🤍💚🩶🤍🖤 They/them/he/she An oddball with an attitude that doesn’t know how to human
Regulus Arcturus Black
1 min read
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Sitting in the silence
Darkness all around
Thoughts racing fast
Thinking of the day
Every little detail
What did I do wrong
Way to many things
The list keeps going on
Faster and faster
Each one is a cut
Both with the blade
And in my mind
Mark after mark
The blood begins to pour
Useless, I’m useless
A waste of space
When the reflection’s done
My arm is red
I bandage it quickly
Till tomo...
Poetry
When things go wrong
Especially as a child
The effects last awhile
I still remember that day
It’s not as clear now
But it will never go away
Dad was upset about somthing
Mom was taking to him
Eventually a police officer arrived
Just one to talk
Dad went away for a little
Mom made us kids talk to people
Therapists or somthing
They came to school
Pulled us out of class individually
Only ...
I forget so many things
What my favorites are
How to do things for me
What being seen feels like
How to brake and cry
What it’s like to be heard
How to ask for help
So I cut myself sometimes
Snap at people for small things
Stay by myself all the time
Feel like I’m not even there
Escape to my daydreams
Hope it will get better
That I can find all I’ve lost...
The most beautiful things have thorns
A sweet rose can couse deep pain
Families can wear and fray with age
Friends can be toxic and harmful to you
Even in hope there’s despair somewhere
Life can be hard and you can be hurt
Your own mind can trap and lie
Your hands can find a blade to cope
A bottle or two of pills or booze
But thorns can be removed with work
Even if they come back some ...
I’ll the favorite child
Always staying in line
The only one home
My brother left
Mother isn’t satisfied
She curses me more
Her anger growing
She hurts and hurts
Controls my choices
My brother hates me
I’m to much like her
He doesn’t listen or care
I told him I was going
He didn’t hear
I know I’ll die
But I have to try
Try to be more than Mother
More than the perfect child
I have to take t...
Adventuring in the forest
My only true escape left
Walking trails at night
Listening to insects
I settle by a tree
A nearby stream
Babbling slow
A perfect place
For a final rest
I lay by the tree
Remembering
The life I’ve lived
I unsheath my dagger
Position it by my heart
Then plunged it deep
Goodbye cruel world
I’ll lie here forever
Where I’m meant to be...
Lighting a candle
Lavender and calm
Watching it dance
With rhythmic song
Empty on the inside
The sent so enticing
I reach out to touch it
The warmth in me growing
Pulling back slowly
My hand now red
My other hand grabs
The candle instead
The hot wax is pooling
All it takes is a tip
Little beads now
Dotting my wrist
I move up my forearm
Careful and slow
Then settle back down
The wax gr...
The days come and go
I put on a smile for show
Slipping by unnoticed
My insides growing cold
Numbing and alone
Unable to shed a tear
Pills by my bedside
Helping me with my days
Til a bad day wins
Shaking and afraid
I take one after another
Ten in quick succession
To insure my sleep is forever
As my body gives in
Breath slowing to a still
A question lingers
Would anyone notice a chan...
Sitting in my room
So unhappy
Unable to cry
I’ve forgotten how
I remember it
Crying over little things
When I was a kid
Now it’s a tear at best
And never for myself
Even why I cut
Or can eat a thing
I’m just empty
It’s easier for now
But I want to brake down
To get help
If only I knew how
(Someone once told me that crying was a sign of healing. It’s ok to cry and let out your emotions...
Sitting alone in my room
The good child to them
The one not to worry about
Forgotten by them all
What they don’t know
Is that I hate being alone
I hate being forgotten
I’m in really deep rouble
I cry and I cut and I bleed
But they wouldn’t care
They hurt me more
Now my brother is gone
All the anger is on me
All the pain is mine to hold
No one sees it but it’s true
And I don’t know how ...
