“Don’t make promises you can’t keep

Stop lying through your teeth

You’re yelling; all I hear is ringing”

- original song, it’s called You Say You Love Me

I was told we would go to the game today

Bc we could yesterday

You gave me YOUR WORD.

But I guess that didn’t matter

Bc it never does, right?

It’s always who asks

Who do you like more

The boys got a Switch 2 yesterday

I’ve been asking for thre...

Well… I’m really feeling the love

My mom & brother come home from a 5-day baseball tournament a couple states over

First dinner back (same day they come back)

Walmart package brought into the kitchen

My brother: Is it a Switch 2?

Dad: Why would it be a Switch 2? (Something else)

Some more convo

Dad takes a Switch 2 out of the box

Brothers break out screaming & hollering & run to thank mom

I sit, ...

Love is the lie that keeps us alive.

That keeps our hope burning through the night

Never to be squandered, never blown out

Like a candle, held up w/ hope

Love is the sun on a bright, cloudless day

The kind that makes you wear sunglasses out

The kind where the rain & the clouds stay away

The kind where you can’t help but wonder

How life would be if it just stayed forever this way

Love is the curi...

Scars on my face

Look like freckles

Short nails

Remind me of old, bad habits

Sass wrapped in a condescending tone

Insults hidden in sarcasm

Confidence gone in a blink of an eye

All my life, self-esteem has never been mine

This is how bleeding leads to beauty

Freedom & secrets

Cuts & scars

The thoughts that lurk in the darkest corners

Sneak out when you feel you have no other choice

& I never kn...

The vase has broken

The glass is shattered

A bat in my hand

But it’s no match for the dagger you hold

In your hand, poised above my heart

Point down, handle above

As I lie still on the ground

Any wrong move, & I’m dead

Trust is broken

Friendship lost

Whatever existed

Is now long gone

The support & belief I had in you

It almost feels like it never existed

Actually; no, it feels worse

Like you have...

_*knocks on door*_

_Wake up!!_

*groans*

Please stop knocking on the door

_It’s past 11, wake up!!_

Stop yelling…

_I wouldn’t have to yell if you could just do what you’re told!!_

I just asked you to stop yelling.

_How many times have I asked you to do something & you didn’t do it?! Be glad I let you sleep in! I would’ve woken you up at 10!!_

*muffled* Stop yelling!!

_Get up, get up, get up...

A crow, high in the sky

Who’s going to die?

Today, of all days,

When the sun is shining & bright

A giant light; is it a sign?

A sign that it’s time?

Maybe I’m overthinking this

But I have an uneasy feeling

I don’t think today’s going to end well

For anyone…

I can’t ignore a gut feeling

So many times it’s been right

But no one will believe me

Try as I might

Who’s going to believe a little girl?

_...

Sit up, gasping, in cold sweat, out of breath

Silence is deafening… didn’t you leave the fan on before bed?

The bed creaks as your partner shifts in their sleep

You let out a small smile & lie back down against them

Start to doze off… creaking.

You startle again, but stay silent

A whispering noise, like the wind

You look at the clock

& then pitch black....

Once scarred, they now bleed

Thick drops dripping from an open wound

Reopened by sharp claws

Digging into my heart

I cry,

Tears spilling from my eyes

Openings into my heart,

My soul

Must you torture me?

You’re supposed to love me!

It’s what everyone says

“Unconditional love”

You say “tough love”

But I say no

That’s cruel!

You say I should be grateful for the leeway you’ve already given me

So mu...

I’d almost forgotten what they looked like.

What he looked like.

The cap was new

The style was slightly changed,

But more or less the same

A jacket over probably a shirt underneath

Pants, even when it felt like 90 degrees outside

Covered, his entire body

I remember

His face, never changed, looks exactly the same as three years ago when I first met him

He wasn’t a he back then

But I didn’t mind t...