I’d almost forgotten what they looked like.

What he looked like.

The cap was new

The style was slightly changed,

But more or less the same

A jacket over probably a shirt underneath

Pants, even when it felt like 90 degrees outside

Covered, his entire body

I remember

His face, never changed, looks exactly the same as three years ago when I first met him

He wasn’t a he back then

But I didn’t mind then

& I don’t mind now

My best friend

Through thick & thin

Until everything hit

& he couldn’t stand it

I understand

I could hardly keep myself up

Out of the water,

Floating on the surface

Floating, not swimming

I couldn’t pull myself through the current

I had no hope it would mend

But it did

& we’re slowly repairing ourselves back together

Mending the broken, the bruised, the hurt, the pain

& hey, we’re back together again

& I won’t even lie

There’s still something there

Under the platonic, best friend, I’ll-always-be-there-for-you love,

Is a genuine, I-kind-of-love-you kind of love

Every time I made him smile

Every time I made him laugh

Every time I saw the best friend I remembered

I guess the feeling never left

It was just subdued from pain all this time

But we’re back

& better than ever

& we’ll always have the others’ back