Faith

Is a beautiful thing,

A blessed feeling of belief,

But when the world around me

Is burning to naught but ash,

Faith

Is impossible to maintain.

That’s exactly what’s happening

With me.

Faith

Is a fragile thing,

Like a mirror,

With a hit hard enough,

It will shatter.

I once held this faithful mirror

To the world around us,

Admiring its glorious reflection,

Until it all started to burn

And ...

Dearest condolences,

t’was, alas, thy time to be ever taken

for thine power doth wain by season

yea shalt thy lordship be forsaken

a dream, mere vagary—— a twilight treason

borne of rebellious spirit thou were

but to the ends of showing divide

bound to thine way, so thou occured

now broken, buried into Life of Christ

Here lies Death forevermore

whose grip was flame, a fiery t...

Future, be free

Little daughter of the stars

Shenandoah

The death of me, the death of you

And everybody who

Preaches down on the infants

Preaching down on the infants

Screens and clones, they seek our own

They’ve captured all of whom

Is willing to be seized

We used to call for Santa

Now all we wish for is some Tampa

Sun mirrors off the water, let’s get a boat

We could ride out, h...

Brown eyes and dumpling cheeks

Attuned

on your scowl

“You left me to rot”

Like

A bitten plum

Leaking out my substance

Used

Disgusting

Gritted teeth encompass what I see

The me

“You used to be”

A girl....

The house is dark, quiet

Children are crying

Adult’s laughter has now faded into serious conversations

What once was happy is now melancholy

The rooms are cold

Objects casting large strange shadows

There is hate and sorrow in the air

Something is missing

Something to lighten up the house

Something that is gone for awhile

Something that is cold and unmoving

Alone on a table

The lamp sits...

Desintegrating, piece by piece.

Layer by layer.

Mood switching.

Code switching.

Forging new patterns.

Ones that-- before felt out of line.

A circus in my mind quiets down.

Seeing clearly, the words seep through,

Puncturing the paper.

**"This is why it had to die."**

**Underestimated.**

**Disempowered.**

**Treated delicately.**

**Like a flower.**

I don't mind, but now I rise.

On the pedestal

W...

I lost you after years and years of fighting

I lost you after time and time again of trying

You found me, when I was lost and didn’t know I needed more

Deserved more

You found me when I had no self worth

No self love

I lost you when I found me

I lost you and mourned the death of our relationship

You found me and I was nothing like the girl you found

You found me and I found my self love, b...

I didn’t know you all that well,

But nobody deserves that hell.

You were a client but I could see,

A man proud of his family.

Sarcasm seeping through your smile,

With your simplistic, no fuss style.

Your three boys loved you, clear as day.

Your wife must miss you everyday.

I let you deduct that plane,

Sometimes wonder am I to blame.

If I said no, would that protect,

The start of this butterfly e...

It’s a slow burn, as you walk into reality. Into the fact that life just isnt what it seems. The gut punch that sends away all of the dreams you kept so sacred as a kid. You hope and try to bid that life will go the way you want. But life just taunts. When you’re young and free, all you see are sunshine and rainbows. Not the shitty way the wind blows, trying to rip you every which way. Praying all...

My last beta cell died today.

And with it,

my life before.

I wonder if it felt anything.

The way I feel when I’m low.

Sprawled out on the floor of my kitchen,

drunk on Hershey’s syrup.

Or when the numbers are so high,

I don’t think there’s enough water to sate them.

Does it regret not fighting harder?

The same way I wonder

if I could’ve fought back too?

At least the beta cell is dead. ...