Anxiety everyday

Never feeling the same

Each day a different burden

Leaving my memory a simple shame...

My Memories

Though I hold you so dearly

My Memories

I cannot hold so many clearly

My Memories

I do not remember some from early

My Memories

I do remember some merely

My Memories

I cannot bear all so easily

My Memories

Some of you must leave sincerely...

Regret rests

on your shoulders

With those memories

Sadness takes you over

With the section

Of your mind

Anger takes control

With all of them

You see

All these emotions

From simple memories

From the past...

So soft and sour

With whispers that run like feet

Fire is a word both beautiful and deadly

And it’s one that you deserve

You were a smile that lasted too long

The sunlight that cuts your eyes too sharp

If only you took the pain as pleasure

And the pleasure as pain

You took too much

I regret you

Though I don’t apologize

Because I see you as a fire

Truely torturing yet tentative...

**・****_Hallway_**_ _・__

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_People pass in the hall_

_People whom I should know all_

_But we just walk by _

_The people we've known our whole life_

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**・****_People I once knew_****・**__

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_Do I know you do I not_

_Years ago long forgot_

_People I once knew _

_Now peeled from my life like glue _...

I feel like a child

Playing to close to a fire

Or going to pick a rose

Not knowing the pain

that will follow

Experiences branded

in my mind

Unforgettable things

Not all bad

There was always some fun before the pain kicked in

Playing tag around the fire

Rollerblading down a hill

I’m brought back to reality

The pain of getting to close

The pain of falling down

The pain of trying to hold onto s...

A scream of terror

A scream of shame

A scream that echoed in my brain

Noises I do not understand are heard

And words that I cannot understand

Terror and horror rises up my throat

Taking its hand around my neck

Wrapping me in a chokehold

Starlight shimmers

Moonlight glows

Glowing like a shine I could never forget

Like the burden of memory

I will never suppress

Hopes are up

And chances a...

They say anxiety is living in the future

Depression is living in the past

That in itself is the burden of memory

There's no telling how long depression will last

One day you will turn elderly

And you won't remember the past

Alzheimer's runs in my family

My grandfather had it and I fear I will too

There are some memories that I would love to forget

Even though I've had a stroke I have not lost ...

I still dance that way,

The way he taught me that night.

I let go so fast,

A mind forgets everything.

But my body reminds me...

It holds me down

Down in the water

It lets me drown

It lets me wander

Deserts and oceans

Watches me falter

Watches me trip

And bleed

Over my own blade

Memory

It ties me to you

It sows my skin up

It pulls me through

And above

Memory

You are why I panic

You are why I shake and cry

When I wake up in the middle of the night

God, memory!

Why?

Why?!

What did I do as a child

To have these scars as ea...