𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

she/they - 🤍🩶🖤💜🏳️‍🌈- kinda me just venting on here about mostly real events but with the occasional piece of fiction. if any of yall need to yap or rant, im always here just comment or do the message thing! hope yall enjoy!

192

Writings

Followers

Following

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

192

Writings

Followers

Following

Why, Brother

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

why brother,

is it that you inflict pain

without a second thought?

i know i

shouldn’t feel anything at all,

and yet it is hurt

the spikes through my thoughts.

why brother,

must you hate me?

for all i’ve ever

done for you,

was hope for a good future-

but now,

i’m not quite sure

about what to feel.

should i ignore it,

as all women get told

that men don’t mean the

crap they give,

but then again

why s...

Poetry

tracks

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

i’m stuck on

the tracks of

my train of thought

tied down and

i can’t escape,

maybe if they

could see my struggle

they’d swerve a

little to the left,

except they’re stuck

on these tracks

with me...

Poetry

a name

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

you asked my name,

and looking into your eyes

i didn’t have one.

you asked for a friend

and i knew you’d

always be one.

you say you love me

just not like that:

you cut the heart

from my chest.

ask him to the formal

don’t even

bother with me because

i’d dress up in

my sunday best

and all you’d do

is shove a knife through my back

and smile before you

apologized.

you’d stuff my mouth

with cotton befo...

Poetry

the door is open

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

don’t look away

from the paper

but escape,

run the door is open.

down the hall and

farther down the stairs

until no one can

find you anywhere

think of her and you:

the possibilities,

you know

they won’t happen but,

imagine them anyway,

curate them til

they make your

stomach flutter-

until they could just

maybe happen

but run,

the door is open…

and now it’s

completely locked...

Poetry

aren’t i?

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

how do i feel?

please tell me

i dont know

there’s a smile on

my face and a hole

in my chest.

there’s a light within

my eyes and a lack

of it within my mind.

because what do i do

when you ask who i like?

because obviously

i like you.

and you obviously

don’t like me.

i’m doomed aren’t i?

to love the one who

will never love me.

because what do i do

when there’s a brother who hates me?

because im buri...

Poetry

Scream

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1 min read

if only i had somewhere

i could scream,

right at the top of

my lungs because

why,

tell me why

you keep picking every guy

who won’t choose you??

why can’t you

just pick me?

let me show you how

you should be treated,

because i’ve watched as

you moved from crush to crush

and what exactly

do i do?

nothing.

i cant scream

i can’t cry

i cant say anything.

i can only say nothing....

Poetry

hurry up

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

if only time

could just move faster!-

and yet i don’t want to

get old.

but i want to find

“the one”

the magical being that

will make me feel something

in my heart,

for it is longing for

this stranger that

keeps me up at night.

so time go fast!

my sleep and

sanity is on the line!

i want someone who

understands and

knows how bad

it can be but

is still amazing

anyways!

someone that

i can truly

love…...

Poetry

the difference between now and then

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

the change was

so gradual

i didn’t even notice.

once i was

waking up excited

for the day.

once i would simply

play with the

neighbors til dusk.

once i didn’t

want to go to sleep,

for i wanted it

to be morning.

now,

i wake up

and wish i could go back

to sleep.

now,

i sit on the couch

hoping for a change

for the better.

now i crave sleep

and dread the

morning....

Poetry

overestimated

𝔪𝔢𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫

1 min read

these tears on

my cheeks seem

never ending,

to you at least

but you won’t stop

“get a hold of

yourself”

“you are holding

this family hostage”

“i’m disappointed”

but it’s hard to get a

grip on myself

when there is

nothing to gain

purchase and

i’m not holding anyone

which might be

why i’m still

hurting,

because there’s

no one else

to hold

and it’s not my

fault you’re

disappointed because

thos...

Poetry

We’ll Fly

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1 min read

when classes have

completely ran out,

and we’ve had our last day

of learning, we’ll fly.

when chores are

completed

and we’ve swept every

floor, we’ll fly.

when the locks

are broken and

the chains are gone

shall

fly...

Poetry