we started dating

only two years ago,

and a few weeks off today,

we’re broken up now,

but i can’t remember why i loved you.

maybe it was satisfaction if i made you smile

maybe i just thought you were

broken and in need of fixing,

but you know?-

i can’t believe i fell for it,

i was not your first love,

i was a drug to you,

you used me so you felt better,

and when i didn’t feel great!

well that’s pr...

she’s so beautiful in that dress

i can’t help think that,

old habits die hard

sometimes, when i’m at my weakest

i want her like that,

to be able to touch her lips

and stare into her eyes until the world ends.

only sometimes does that feelings come back

the memory of her collarbones,

her waist and hips,

only when she smiles do i feel like this

like i want to return to her again

fall for her

only wh...

i’m alone again

i told her how

i didn’t want that

so now we’re just friends

a weight off my shoulders for sure

but he won’t leave me alone

i see him in everything

i think i see him in places he wouldn’t be

i smell his cologne

and i hear his voice

every time i close my eyes

he’s right there

i’m being haunted by a living soul

who has no intent to haunt me

but then i don’t regret it

because i’d gladl...

i don’t know why i agreed

just for fun she said

and i said yes

i don’t like her,

not like that,

i still love him,

but now-

now we’re dating?

it doesn’t feel real…

it reminds me too much

of when he would kiss me,

cuz she kissed my cheek,

and held my hand

and i wanted to vomit

i need to get out of this

i need to get out of this right fucking now

but how?

how do i do that??

be toxic and make her hate...

it hurt like hell

when you guys held hands

for just a split second

when you looked at me

and smiled that smile

that’s only mine

and fist bumps

and I JUST WANT YOU

because it hurts like hell

every moment

we’re not together...

i hate to admit it

but it’s getting harder to ignore

the twinge of hurt

in my chest every time

i see you guys together

when you walk close but don’t hold hands

and then share the side walk

but there’s so much space

when you smile but not truly smile

i don’t know what to think

i just know it hurts

it hurts when you’re with her

i don’t know

how much longer

i can take watching you two

maybe i just w...

it’s crazy isn’t it?

how you have no clue

how much i like you

that i think about your eyes

your hair

your smile,

every single fucking day

and you fail to know

which is okay

because i am still thriving,

maybe, at least i think i am.

if i ignore turning the shower on,

blasting music - sad love songs in fact -

and sob

because i love you

and i think of you too often

for it to be just a crush

but it’...

Paramore and love songs

because i love you, i love you,

i really do.

because even though you love her,

i’m still here.

i march onwards for you,

i play for you

when you touch your hand to mine,

for a fist bump,

the butterflies go crazy

but your Drop Dead Gorgeous, VOILÁ style

and your smile has me feeling something

i haven’t felt in quite a bit…

even when i think about all those little things,

alle...

there are four people i’ve thought about.

four people i have liked

and i cant decide which

the first, she’s gorgeous.

she’s christian though, and very straight

but when i think of her lips on mine

butterflies and excitement mingle

in my stomach

the second, he’s caring and kind.

he plays the drums and

is smart but, he’s taken.

but he is so very pretty,

and he has a smile just for me

the third, s...

it was odd to see him

i haven’t seen him in years

and part of me resents him for it

resents him because he didn’t go

to a single family event

for absolutely no reason.

and when i saw him, it wasn’t a heartfelt greeting

he slurred his words

and talked about a video game

he doesn’t know me,

i wonder if seeing me after so long,

seeing me so different,

made him feel bad.

feel bad for leaving everyone....