it was odd to see him

i haven’t seen him in years

and part of me resents him for it

resents him because he didn’t go

to a single family event

for absolutely no reason.

and when i saw him, it wasn’t a heartfelt greeting

he slurred his words

and talked about a video game

he doesn’t know me,

i wonder if seeing me after so long,

seeing me so different,

made him feel bad.

feel bad for leaving everyone.

part of me wants to reach out again

but why should i when he makes

not a single effort to reach out?

i resent him for never showing his face

i resent him for just disappearing

HE WAS GONE FOR YEARS

and then i didn’t even get a hug,

barely even a word.

just some slurred sentences

and some too long laughter.

i hate him for not making an effort to come back to the family