Every time I’m angry

I remember your sweetness.

Like little butterflies,

You make me giggle with delight.

I smile at our memories.

I laugh when you laugh.

I melt when you smile.

I dream for the best

For you.

I believe that your heart,

As broken as it may be,

Will find it’s way.

Every little thing

Reminds me of you

Because in you,

I see me.

My fears,

My hopes,

My beliefs,

And my story

I kno...

My pigtails whipped through the wind,

As I struggled to balance my pink bike.

Nine years ago, I wasn’t afraid to fall

It’s like I’m growing sideways because

Now so much older, my biggest fear

Is, you probably guessed it, falling.

I’ve built up a decent support system

I’ve found some goals to work towards

I’ve found ways to calm my thoughts down

But I can’t escape the fear of everything

Slowl...

Sunshine is brightening

Rain is calming

Clouds are sleepy

Wind is startling

Thunder is fear

Lightning is shock

Sun showers are hope

And rainbows are beauty

But what is fog?

Is fog sadness?

The kind that

Covers the horizon

Making it feel like

There’s nothing left?

Is fog anxiety?

Fogging everything,

Spreading rapidly,

And hiding every inch

Of daylight,

Eventually leaving everyone

In a panic?

...

When you see me at first

You’d see a reserved girl

The type you’d see

Sitting in the back of the class

Not saying a word to anyone

You’d see that wannabe perfect girl

Who cares only about

Pleasing adults and getting good grades

You’d see a girl who doesn’t laugh

And would never dare to take a risk

If it involves a potential consequence

And yeah, I was that girl

Or atleast I tried my level ...

I don’t remember

the feeling of being okay

I don’t remember

the desire to achieve something

I don’t remember

why this all is worth it

I spend my days

hiding bloody wounds

after spending my nights

waking up from empty sadness

Time is just

an endless loop

of nothing

So what’s the point?

It won’t matter if I stop trying

It won’t matter if I let myself fall

It won’t matter if I crash

_and...

We all looked the same in the dark

That night

I could only see the shapes and the stars

That night

We all looked the same in the dark

But he didn’t

I was scared

I could only see the shapes and the stars

The grass looked like air

The light only shone from afar

It all looked the same in the dark

But he didn’t

I saw something move

From the corner of my eye

I saw his hair

His face

His eyes

I sa...

I see you in the sunrise

When the stars fade

and the sky slowly

fills the universe with light

I see you in the morning haze

When the birds make their first call

And the moon disappears

From so close yet so far

I see you in the clouds

So perfectly lush

So beautifully shaped

So peacefully free

From so close yet so far

I see you in daylight

I feel you in the sun

The rays tracing my skin

Warming m...

1. In my hood.

skipping through the woods.

carrying a basket.

picking berries to eat.

juicy and sweet.

what a treat!

but a girl.

mustn’t dawdle.

after all, grandma’s waiting

2. after all, grandma’s waiting.

mustn’t dawdle.

but a girl.

...

Sleep

Used to mean

Cuddling with loved ones

In a soft blanket

Clutching tight

To my gazillion animals

Laying by me

Sleep

Used to mean

Having the silliest dreams

And waking up giggling

Sleep

Used to give

Me energy

For a bright day ahead

Sleep

Used to be beautiful

Now

Sleep feels like

A burden

Because why do I

Have to sleep

When I could be up

Being productive?

Sleep

Feels pointless

When you ...

I sit down

So ready

To conquer this test

With my sharpened pencil

I write my name

With loopy letters

Perfectly spaced

Then I look over

The first page

Expecting to feel

Like I know it

But instead

The words blend

Together

The graphs

Become meaningless

The symbols

Turn into scribbles

My mind

S

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A

R

CH

ES

and

S

E

A

R

CH

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For anything

But what does it find?

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