i’m alone again

i told her how

i didn’t want that

so now we’re just friends

a weight off my shoulders for sure

but he won’t leave me alone

i see him in everything

i think i see him in places he wouldn’t be

i smell his cologne

and i hear his voice

every time i close my eyes

he’s right there

i’m being haunted by a living soul

who has no intent to haunt me

but then i don’t regret it

because i’d gladly swim in

his caramel eyes until i drown

i’d give a million fist bumps

if that’s what it took for our hands to touch,

i’d tell thousands of bad jokes

if only to see him smile

i’d tell him i hate when he steals a mallet

if only for him to talk to me

i’d pretend i know nothing

if only for him to explain it,

drum on his chest when i don’t know the rhythm

i’d do something stupid

if only to hear him call me girl

he is in everything breath i take

and yet he doesn’t even know

how badly he haunts me