I’m invisible

A great power

A blessing

Can’t get in trouble

Can’t do what you don’t want

Can’t get forced

No one pays attention

To your mistakes

To your accidents

I’m invisible

A horrid power

A curse

Can’t ask questions

Can’t get help

Can’t be seen

No one pays attention

To my thoughts and words

To my likes and dislikes...

I’m invisible

On the sidelines

I want to join

I’m even invited

But the thoughts

They say that I’m bad

That I’m not good enough

That I could disappear

I don’t want that

But it’s enough

To keep me in the corner

Away from the others

An observer

When I want to be friends...

I’ve always hated attention.

Especially in class.

Presentation? Never look away from the board.

Class discussion? Go to the bathroom and wait it out.

I never raise my hand, and always look down.

Drink water to avoid being called on.

I walk into class and see people I’d _love_ to be friends with.

None of them acknowledge me, as if i’m Invisible.

Next class.

Teacher calls on me.

I ignore...

As I walk

My shadow lingers

My presence stalks

With morbid fingers

I’m not to be seen

Even for a minute or two

They do call me the queen

Of being see-through

It’s not my fault they don’t see me

I’m just glad they don’t stare

They treat me so differently

When they don’t know I’m there...

I’m always there

In the corner

Never seen

Away from the world

When I speak

No one hears

If I disappeared

No one would notice

No one would care

It’s better that way

Walls so high

Away from pain

Till the end of time

Or I die...

nobody gives a care

unless it’s to bully me.

“you’re too slow! start running!”

“you can’t get me! nyanyanyanyanyanya!”

“how are those even push-ups?”

**_STOP BULLYING ME FOR THINGS I CANNOT CONTROL.

YOU IDIOTIC BOYS ARE GOING TO BE THE END OF MY SANITY.

_**breath in…

breath out…

and say nothing to them.

let the childish boys settle their own problems before you blow out at them.

assuming they ever...

TW: Emotional abuse/Emotionally Unavailable Parent

I wait in silence

For her mouth to stop opening

For her face to be calmer

For her foul-smelling breath to stop traveling into my face

I sit in silence

Hope she’ll stop yelling soon

Hope I can unfreeze

Hope my ears stop ringing

**_Ow._**

You just had to hurt me

Stab me where I actually feel the pain

Twist it in my back

& pull it out, only to r...

Can you even see me?

Do i need to speak more clearly?

Or possibly do i need to….

**_SCREAM?

_**

You can’t hear the voice in my head,

I named her existential dread.

But would you care anyway?

Or am I too…**_

Invisible?

_**

Can’t get a word out

Not that it matters much

You don’t hear me anyway

So maybe I will just….**_

Disapear?

_**I feel like I don’t exist

In a litteral and metaphorical sense

But...

If I talked to someone in French,

_ils ne me comprendraient pas_.

I’m not sure I would either, though.

I’m just a dull player on the bench,

and I’m the rain compared to snow.

No one bats a single eye at me,

unless their intentions are to judge.

I’m invisible, like I’m _caché de la vue._

No one will look, even if I scream_._

I’m only parchment, with its ink smudged,

no one bats a single eye at me,...

I’m forgotten in class

By my teachers and peers.

Invisible I am;

My face drowned in tears.

I’m forgotten at university

While my parents are at home.

They seem to live fine without me;

I’m utterly alone.

I’m forgotten it seems.

Invisibility cloaks my face,

Yet my feelings still rage,

leaving sadness my only trace....