I just wanted to go for a walk

But this walk changed my life

I walked past your house

Oh why did I walk past your house

And I see you

Kissing her

I run

Tears pouring down my cheeks

I run past the pond where I went swimming

Than turn around I run back

I jump in

And stay there...

I slip the mittens you made for me onto my hands

I remember the fire blazing that kept me warm

I remember how your needles clinked together as the yarn came together

I rember watching the yarn come together to shape things that would keep me warm

I remember your voice

Telling me stories

Storied of witches

And fairies

And castles

And everything magical

As I gaze at my hands I remember all the mem...

I’m laughing

Twirling

Spinning

Squealing

I’m happy

This is rare for me

The coldness is keeping me in the present

And I savor it

Here I don’t have to pretend

Here I can be myself

My friends are looking at me in surprise

I realize I’m smiling

I can’t remember the last time I smiled...

Beneath the willow you will find me waiting

I have been waiting for you

For a while

Days

Weeks

Months

Years

I have lost count

All I know is you said to me

Told me to wait

Said you would come

Promises

I believe you

I trust you

So beneath the willow you will find me...

It’s my birthday

Today I am eighteen

I don’t feel eighteen

I feel eighty

Today I’m officially an adult

But I’ve been an adult since I learned to walk

I never had a caregiver

Someone to make the decisions for me

I was the one who held your hair when you were hungover and vomiting in the toilet

I was the one who carried narcan in case you overdosed

I was the one who took care of kid after kid you ha...

Silence is when you can think

When you can take a deep breath

Silence is peaceful

Silence is the time realize all the things you did wrong

And than beat yourself up over them

Silence is when you scream and cry even though you have no idea

When tears stain your pillow because you don’t know what to do

Silence is when your the most negative

No one’s voice can penetrate the one inside your head

Be...

My head swivels in all directions looking

My eyes find him

He look up

I look away

My eyes are always looking for him

My mouth always saying his name

My ears straining to hear his voice

In the hall I drop my book

He picks it up and hands it to me

Smiles politely

I smile back

Inside though

I’m ecstatic...

He sends me another text

An apology

I don’t care

He knew what he was doing was wrong

And he still did it

I can’t get over that

But apparently you can

Because you text me again

This time calling me names

Names I don’t like

Names im not going to say

Names that he knows will hurt me the most

I can’t take it

I grab a stone

And smash it on my phone

Over and over

Hey guys today I didn’t ask my cru...

My heart wants him

My head says he doesn’t want me

My heart makes me happy

My head makes my eyes sting and fill

I love my heart

But my head makes sense

I keep going back and forth

My heart is scared

My head is prepared though

It is used to the pain

So which do I choose

The risk

Or the pain

Or do both lead to pain

Heeyy so I don’t usual,y ask for advice but I’m asking my crush for his numb...

Before you I didn’t know what betrayal was

I didn’t think it could happen to me

But it did

And now I am lost

Before you I was happy

I had friends

Family

A life

Now

I have none of those things

I am alone

You have taken everything from me

You have stolen my opportunities and made them your own

I know that hate is a strong word

And should not be used

But that’s why I like it

Because it describes our...