We both sit on the sofa with his friends.

They are all being so loud.

L O U D

I inhale and exhale deeply.

Ayan is laughing with a bunch of people I don’t know.

Time is moving so slow.

I just want to go home.

S L O W

"You okay?" Ayan mutters and squeezes my knee gently.

I don’t answer. I lean my head against his shoulder. He leans back on the sofa and wraps his arm around ...

I inhale and exhale deeply.

I did not manage to get my two hours alone today. I had uni first thing, then me and Ayan had to match stories of how we fell in love so we can convince the school that we’re actually in love. Then, he helped me pick out a dress. Then one thing lead to another of utter chaos and now I’m here at the party. Tired. My social battery is gone. Dead.

Ayan is laughing with...

Hey! I’m Evie

Socialising is very hard for me, as you can agree. Being an introvert to me is when silent arms are buzzing in your head and your words get jammed in your throat when you are in front of a large crowd. I’ve never been good at it and probably never will - ‘express yourself’ they say but I can’t even talk to new people because of social anxiety. For some reason, I let it rule my life...

So, what are we?

I glanced at the text from a notable distance, my high-definition eyesight being one of my strengths. Was that only considering my senses, or in my life? I didn’t know.

This girl had been coming over recently, and her company was sweet. She made me forget about work with her calm presence, and I liked to stay in that feeling while she’d be here. I never went beyond basic hum...

Nova would quite possibly rather be anywhere else than here.

Formal balls are not her thing.

She grew up in the Wild Thicket. There are just animals and trees. Balls are the very opposite to what she is familiar with.

More people, fancy clothing, an echoing room, and the lack of self respect.

Ward tells her this is important and she should be here, so here she is. But that doesn’t make her ...

Cassie started off the day at 100%

On her way to work she stopped to get some coffee. The woman at the drive through window was incredibly chatty. How's your day so far? Got any plans? What do you do for work? She tells Cassie all about her own morning, her dog, and something about school. Honestly, Cassie misses most of the conversation and her battery drains every moment the woman prattles on...

I stand in a circle with these people whom I call friends. A smile plastered on each one of their faces. I can tell they are real from the creases and divits expressed in their expressions. I wear a mask that displays contemptment and excitement to be here with these people. Hiding the fact that I’m drained and ready to go home, but they will never know.

The talking is endless. The minutes are s...

Time ticks

We just got here

And I am ready to leave

Yet time moves so slowly

I can hear every sound

Someone chewing food

Some kids being rude

And boy is it leaving me in a bad mood

I try to shut it out

But that makes it louder

Till the sounds take over my brain

And how they quickly drain

That battery in my head

On the last 5%

Teetering off the edge

Holding back tears I’m trying not to shed

As...

(this writing is basically a diary entry <3)

I stared off into the abyss, or more so the sticky floor of this house party. My ability to socialize drained away hours ago, so I’m alone again.

It seems that people only want me when I’m functioning correctly. Like a product. Like a toy. People never want the imperfect versions of each other, even though we all have them. Did I mention I get extrem...

Low man flickers in red,

desperate for a bit of power

Low man flickers in black,

desperate for a bit of

Low man flickers in death,

dead man flickers low and low

and lo’ the herald’s song soothes him not...