Am I the problem

I am the problem

Am I the solution

I am not the solution

Let me just run away

Fade away

Give into my despair

And let people forget me

Cause what hope is there to live?

There is no hope

So just let me wither

Wither into the breeze

To never be seen again

But I can’t

I have to stay here

For the sake of everyone

I need to make sure they are ok

Even when all hope is lost in...

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I have lost all hope for this life

I have no home no love just strife

My parents hate may very soul

To end my life must be their goal

They strike me down every day

Words or pain it’s all the same

I know a way to help the world

A task so hard it’s suicide

By try I must to save us all

To prove I can be brave and strong

So my brother will remember me

And so my love can now be free

I won’t b...

TW: Pain, cussing, and mentions of past traumas

it hurts

It fucking hurts

And I want answers

It doesn’t have to get better

I just want to know why I can’t move

I overdid it yesterday

And that is my fault

But I went back to what I love

To quickly

It wasn’t safe

This is why I hate my fucking body

I danced for the first time in a year

Without thinking of her

Or how she made me feel

Without th...

I’m a mess.

It’s hilarious,

So funny I want to laugh through my pain.

But it’s fine.

Spotify’s fucking with my head,

Playing songs that make me wanna scream and tear something apart,

And then songs that tear out my heart and leave me trying to remember how to breathe.

And then songs that make me want to tear out my heart so I stop breathing.

It’s fine.

I stained my sheets and my favorite pajam...

As I lay in bed watching the sad light filter through the window,

I sink inside myself way deep down below.

With the lonely weeping glow, I drown myself in sorrows,

For I know what follows the horrors of tomorrow.

With the echoes of memories dread ripped from my torso,

I float further away than Calypso and fade into a monochrome rainbow.

As Light and shadow fuse into two,

Chaos brews from within, ...

There once was a spark, a burning flame.

A light that flickered, wild and untamed.

But as time kept ticking, it wore it thin.

The silence grew and doubt crept in.

I’ve tried and tried, and gave it all I’ve got.

It seems like everyone but me gets a slot.

Pushing and pushing until I can go no further.

My mind punishing me with its constant murmur.

I guess my life is here at rock bottom.

Slithering t...

I know it may be hard

To see the light in life,

But together,

You and I,

Well make it through the strife.

Hand in hand,

We’ll move forward,

You and I will pull through,

We’ll find the light at the end

Of the tunnel,

And the darkness will fade away.

I promise you,

There’s a point in

Living life,

Even with the endless dark

That seems to grow and grow,

I just want you to know,

There’s people he...

When i was 5 I always wondered why people had scars on their and I thought it was cool like they fought a grizzly bear it was only when i turned 10 I realized they were only fighting themselves their emotions their grief their their depression like they were hanging by a thread build from a mama spider before it died and was forgotten and your just trying to stay alive but the heavy stone that hol...

In the depths of despair,

Amidst the shadows of sorrow,

I see you, weary soul,

Lost in the labyrinth of resentment.

But listen closely,

For in the silence,

There is a symphony of hope,

Echoing through the corridors of your heart.

You've spent so long,

Trapped in the maze of anger,

Trapped in a cycle of suffering…

Blinded to the beauty,

That surrounds you.

But it's never too late

To open ...

she said kill yourself, i said

i tried.

she said you’re a whore, i said

i know.

she said you look wretched, i said

i see.

he said cut your wrists, i said

my knife is dull.

he said you’re too fat, i said

i’m starving.

he said try being nice, i said

fuck off.

they said do better, i said

i’m trying.

they said work harder, i said

i’m trying.

they said think smarter, i said

i’m trying.

the bott...