Most of my life was nothing but hate, sorrow, and pain.

It tore me apart; I need to find out how to get away.

Away from today, away from the blame, away from the shame, a place to hide before I go insane.

So I created a void, a place of darkness in my brain.

The light's been nothing but a stain, so the darkness became my inner escape.

From the things in my life that continue to rape.

M...

Every time I wake up my life begins anew,

The serene melody of birdsong from my window comes through.

With every breath a gift of a love that’s forever true,

As the spirit in me is the same as the spirit in you.

Thank you for everything I’ve went through in life,

The good, the bad, the nights I had to die to only learn how to survive.

I kept going no matter how many knives were sticking out of my ...

As I lay in bed watching the sad light filter through the window,

I sink inside myself way deep down below.

With the lonely weeping glow, I drown myself in sorrows,

For I know what follows the horrors of tomorrow.

With the echoes of memories dread ripped from my torso,

I float further away than Calypso and fade into a monochrome rainbow.

As Light and shadow fuse into two,

Chaos brews from within, ...

After waking up to a beautiful morning,

She went outside for some air and while walking,

She felt the wind through the trees as if they were talking,

She felt a tug at her soul, it must be a calling.

Out of the Forest came a welcoming light,

It was so warm and inviting that she cried with delight,

With a smile on her face and a tear in her eyes, she replied,

With a heart shining so bright, she wal...

Dear Self this is me Terry,

We haven’t talked in how many years? Like 30??

I know it’s been forever and for that I’m truly sorry,

It’s not your fault at all it’s mine actually.

The last time we talked it was horrible, ugly and scary,

We were kids back then we were practically still babies.

I mean hell the house were lived in was the doorway to Hades,

Home is supposed to be a place of love and saf...

I’m sitting here thinking about my earliest childhood years,

The ones I can’t remember that shimmer between laughter and tears.

Before the world introduced me to it’s sorrow and fears,

When everywhere was laughter without any cares.

As we got older we learned how to walk,

Learned how to run and then learned to talk.

We stayed in our heads and forgot about our heart,

We learned how to survive, as...

The more we try to forget our memory breathes,

Like a relentless haunting entity.

Feeding on our worst memories and playing them on repeat,

Like lambs to a slaughter, we are led to deceit.

Where our past does pirouettes to a sinister beat,

Locked in the pastures where the days of old whisper indiscreet.

Were broken down, scarred beyond repair, they keep us in the dark of the fading light,

With eve...

Born in 1986 just a tiny seed,

Thought I was finally here, finally free.

I quickly learned by the time I turned three,

I was born dead, left to watch my life bleed.

Started out normal you know just a little abuse,

Thought I’d know love but I’m completely confused.

The light I had dimmed and broke in two,

From the pain, the hate, my brain, the shades now infused.

Fists would rain down like thunde...

In the vespertine hours the darkness starts to glow,

The night comes alive ‘neath nocturnal rainbows.

Crepuscular light illuminating aura shadows,

There is no sorrow in the pre light of tomorrow.

In the grand intricate dance of fate,

Where celestial bodies sway to rhythms of the shade.

They etch their songs of existence in beautiful displays,

As the moon rises bidding goodnight to the day.

In th...

In the dark of night, I scream to the sky,

“Goddamn it, why’d you let my boys die?”

An hour and twenty-eight minutes, then gone,

Forty-eight more, and I’m left here to mourn.

I held them so briefly, just a flash in the light,

Now I’m drowning in shadows, lost in the fight.

Thoughts like daggers, they pierce through my soul,

Did I fuck up their lives? Did I lose all control?

Every ...