This anxiety is a shadow that never leaves me.

It starts out silently, siphoning my vitality,

Quickly turning violently, rewriting my reality.

It takes over privately, tirelessly invading my privacy.

Blood boils as the pulse beats with fury,

Turning everything I know into pure misery.

Each breath becomes a battle, a struggle to remain whole,

Breaking me to pieces; I fight for contro...

I sit tight through the night and ponder,

As I look to the trees for answers,

In the loving embrace of nature.

Eyes closed, hands feeling, taking in the texture

Of the bark and the earth together.

Can it be a gift of the Gods? A miracle elixir?

My fingers trace the leaves; there’s a spark divine,

A flash of light, slightly lifting life’s veil,

Coded in nature's design.

Delicate ...

Ever since I can remember I’ve had a hole,

The size of a pin prick inside of my soul,

I try to fight back but life is taking its toll,

Standing face to face with the Devil,

I realize I need to surrender, relinquish control,

Before the demons inside make me their forever home,

I used to feel all alone till I went deeper into my darkness and made it my own,

Been living there for so long,

My heart ha...

I’m sitting here, trying to figure out what instills fear.

The things that make my skin peel, as they take away all that’s real.

I feel like a busted tire or a missing wheel,

Bumping and crashing into life as I fall downhill.

I need some pills—enough to completely fill my stomach till I’ve taken enough to kill

The monster of fear I can’t see or hear.

But it hides in the shadows; it giv...

Being sad is one of the worst feelings in the world,

Makes the tiniest of things into gigantic hurdles,

Going everywhere and nowhere, turning in circles,

Just food for the picking for life’s vultures,

Not the kind that you read about in scriptures,

But the ones that freeze your soul as you hide under your covers,

Only to discover,

The birth of a 1000 sufferers,

They never leave, th...

I wrote this for a group I used to be in that claimed to be spiritual and enlightened. Afteri was an admin for about a year or so they decided to change the rules and automatically ban members that they thought weren’t enlightened as them or on the same vibrational frequency. Which I think is absolutely 💯 BS!!! I ran across it and figured it was worths a repost. So this is to the ones that think...

Yesterday was a day that’s supposed to be amazing,

An entire year of anxiously waiting,

For another year to come and go fading,

We take 2 steps forward and call it a victory,

Then take 3 steps back tracing a repetitive history,

Somewhere in between is an exercise in futility,

We search every nook and cranny for any evidence of divinity,

Unwillingly we’re stripped of dignity a slave to societal cap...

Yesterday was a day that’s supposed to be amazing,

An entire year of anxiously waiting,

For another year to come and go fading,

We take 2 steps forward and call it a victory,

Then take 3 steps back tracing a repetitive history,

Somewhere in between is an exercise in futility,

We search every nook and cranny for any evidence of divinity,

Unwillingly we’re stripped of dignity a slave to societal cap...

Minds heavy I’m stuck in a state of desolation,

My hearts empty as a lot more than times being wasted,

Hands are unsteady I’ve been in the dark so long I’m a shadow painted,

Every mirror unfriendly, another painting of self love separated.

This depression weighs my soul and keeps pressing,

With no discretion this is a curse not a blessing,

A spreading infection that goes from zero to obsessing,

I...

From the moment I was born I was destined to die,

Childhood wrapped in thorns poking holes in my life,

A shadow in a storm only seen through flashes of light,

Everywhere I looked love transformed from nightmares in the day that kept me up all night,

A cold soul searching for warmth still I fight with all my might,

Scratch the walls till my fingers bled into the words that write these verses from m...