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Standing in the bathroom

Mind a chaotic mess

Dangerous thoughts looming

Acting without consciousness

Turning on the water

Readying a shower

Blanking stepping in

Sinking to the floor

Under the water

Still fully clothed

What if I’m just a burden

What if they don’t really care

Why do they care

If they didn’t I could let go

I wouldn’t hurt anyone

How do I know they care

Mind slows as d...

It’s too cold for this cardigan

Shifting from one foot to another

Should I ring again?

Plastic cuts into the curve of my fingers

I worry if I brought the right things

There’s no advice book on what to bring when your kid had a manic episode

No chapter in What To Expect When Your Expecting

Favorite book and a toothbrush

Sweatpants without strings

Unfulfilled dreams and deodorant

With each sec...

Interlocked fingers

On arms left and right

Are meant to hold each other

Like branches grown towards the sky

Furled together

Within themselves

Trickling bits of sunlight

Seeping through widowed branches

Hoping to meet a friend closer to

The ocean that says hi with drops

The tree desires to be close and yet

They can never be as such

But the promise of a touch

Is just as bright

As a a con...

Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing.

You’re body begins to adjust, almost easing.

The hairs on your arm might still stand up.

Doesn’t matter if it’s in the ocean or tub.

As you close your eyes and take a deep breathe.

The water surrounds you and forms a sheathe.

Your toes might curl or your foot may flex.

Either way your body will convex.

So relax your body and decompress.

Inhale and exhale...

Hot objects feel cold

when you're burning

Cold water feels warm

when you're freezing

Night seems blinding

when you're dim

Day seems dark

when you're in the sun

Summer seems boring

when you're thriving

Winter seems happy

when you're dying

Hot or Cold

Cold or Hot

Night or Day

Day or Night

Summer or Winter

Winter or Summer...

Head,

Cold

Heart

Warm,

Soul,

Found,

Inside Your,

Storm

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Cold water feels warm when you are freezing

Ice

Cold

plunge

It dosnet feel cold when you feel so empty

Judgement feels like praise when you are broken

Yelling

screaming

torture

been through it again again

It dosent hurt anymore

Pain feels like healing when you are hurt

Broken

brusied

battered

It feels so little when there is so much more

Poison tastes like water when your thirsty

ignore

forget

b...

Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing.

A stale piece of bread is life giving when you’re starving.

What they don't tell you,

Is that you can’t warm a freezing person quickly.

You can’t give a starving person a normal sized meal.

For us to keep the pain away,

For us to keep the person here,

Healing is slow,

Gentle.

We accept the small pieces of bread.

And though the cold water may ...

Cold water feels warm when you’re freezing

I need affection—

I need attention—

I starve anything you will give me

You are my new addiction

I will seize any moments that you give me with my mouth and body

Appeasing

Pleasing

Eagerly meeting your lips with my tongue—

Wishing that with your touches I can come undone

But when you’re freezing, cold water feels warm....

Cold makes me numb,

Numb makes me at peace,

I see the light in my eyes

As I fall into one piece.

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