Deep breaths take up far more space than silence

And even then i can’t catch my breath

The silence becomes the only thing that comforts since

That day where my voice was too loud

and my body became stone

And I don’t know where to go and how to live without a sound

Too long ago was the day that you left, and the darkness felt safe after

Too long since I had realized that life is not just made ...

Paper boats, gliding across an open lake

We never thought it’d reach the other side

A note at stake that we thought would sink

In prayer that so will the thoughts we hid inside

The scent of lemons as we sat by each other

Crossing our arms over ourselves, protecting ourselves like our mothers

Should have, should have held us when they had the chance

But we are far away now

Our tears become kites ...

A cookie jar that every one loves

Click clack goes the lid as grandmother

Picks it up the sets it down

Picks it up then sets it down

I watch this ritual every day

Watch my grandmother polish it with a frown

Cookies, a word so silly

But yet it’s all what they all thought

But not allowed to touch, they’d never know

That when I peeked when no one was around

It was grandpapa...

The laugh bubbles up although the bubbles inside of me are full of salt water

Something that I cannot let free so it rubs against the inside of my eyes

It stings

I want to fall, and my knees threaten to collapse

Just like my heart years ago, but that’s just history

So I laugh with my face in my hands, shaking

Quaking

Thoughts run past me in slow motion, but yet the words cannot be read

Their l...

Streetlights

Peeking out from the window, illuminating a place I once called home

But that place I left far behind

If only could the wings that brought me there would fly me up again

To be a child peeking through the blinds

Just watching the time go by

Endless waking in the dark, seemingly alone

As shadows crept from the corners and devoured my eyes

Streets where feet clattered like a dream, jus...

It’s not fear I smell, it’s future

Because even from then, I never imagined continuing on since I’ve lost her

Thinking over the moments where laughter coated our eyes

And life was a game, no mask, no fear of smile lines

It’s not fear I smell, it’s hope

There to hold you when time runs out, that’s the only way to cope

Imagining a world where fire doesn’t devour the hands of a hero

And ice takin...

Open skies beckon broader as it starts to pour

The rain the only thing keeping me afoot

Lost at day, not sure where to walk

So I just sit still as I watch the eagles soar

If I were to reach out, would I touch god’s hands?

Would he be reaching for me as breaths became short?

Just one finger away, but yet never close

Thundering, lightning beckoning me so…

If only, if only, if only I cry out to the ...

Lights flash on and off along with the faint call of car alarms

A whisper of the breeze of this already freezing day

The air filled with murmurs of thoughts, thick with concentration

That would just fade back into the blurs around me as the lights change from red to green

Mobiles screening at each other through the stops

Where did everyone have to go that was so important?

How did they see throug...

TW: may contain triggers

Nights spent carefully watching as his smile turned to ice

Nights waiting for the call that I knew would not come

A butterfly that grew bright, was fated to fall and die

Leaving behind a world full of flowers and love

From their perspective

Nights that echoed from my thoughts racing from his words

Nights that screamed in my ear, the night sky wrinkling in my palms

Nights...

These days that become the calling of birds

Into dawn’s opening eyes

Just mornings that were once full of music became silent

The sky crying into my arms, the sun that was felt fell

The leaves that were so close drifted away to where the rest were held

Just one more day, just one more night

Just one cold day amongst the heat

To shiver under the clouds that kept the sun company

For far too long

I...