It’s not fear I smell, it’s future

Because even from then, I never imagined continuing on since I’ve lost her

Thinking over the moments where laughter coated our eyes

And life was a game, no mask, no fear of smile lines

It’s not fear I smell, it’s hope

There to hold you when time runs out, that’s the only way to cope

Imagining a world where fire doesn’t devour the hands of a hero

And ice taking the heart starting from point zero

A world where ties do not become knotted and tangled to let just one free

Where we hold hands with pain, interlocking with needs

A world where I never lost you

The story just keeps going and I don’t know how to stop the pages from turning

To bring you back to the place, but I know you’d be hurting

My own desires to be silenced shall keep you safe in a place where im not there

Debating on the choice whether to stay or leave here

What would you want if you saw my face in your reflection

What if you saw the world fall before you even when you know there is commotion

In the water below you, it’s brimming with shadows

That you think are monsters but it’s just an overdose

It’s not fear I smell, it’s the future

But that is the space where I am scared

A world where I could heal and a world where I could nurture

My loves is a universe I cannot imagine

It’s not fear I smell, it’s you

Up above where I could hold you once again in my arms

Where I hope it is safe, but I know that my bag is made of harm

But still I reach for you