Deep breaths take up far more space than silence

And even then i can’t catch my breath

The silence becomes the only thing that comforts since

That day where my voice was too loud

and my body became stone

And I don’t know where to go and how to live without a sound

Too long ago was the day that you left, and the darkness felt safe after

Too long since I had realized that life is not just made of laughter

It’s made of thunderstorms that rock our boats with anger

Crying and lashing out as their screams go unheard

And when the rocking cannot be still we can only barely hold together

And through this silence comes comfort, that is where we learn

Deep breaths take up far more space than silence

And I know it’s hard to believe when it doesn’t make sense

To still that boat would to stop too quickly and fade into the water

To sink with weights on our ankles and time just becomes longer….

Help me breathe a breath that isn’t there, I cannot go for long

This end that will come again to fade back into being lost

To fade into this sea that is so lonely it chokes

And to fade back into silence, you’ve tried to convince me there is hope

But that too is fading back into the black of my head

Behind my eyes, I forever sleep, though I do not in my bed