WRITING OBSTACLE

Write a paragraph or short story from the perspective of someone who feels disappointed.

You do not have to reveal what the character is disappointed about, nor do you have to make them overtly upset, but you should focus on the small signs and behaviours that show their emotions.

Hopeless

You stupid, stupid girl.

What did you think would happen?

What were you thinking?


That’s the problem.

I wasn’t thinking.

I was living.

For a brief moment of my miserable life,

I was breathing and laughing and smiling and feeling and living.

I was so alive that I forgot to think.

And now it’s hitting me like a train,

A force so real and heavy it’s crushing my chest.

I don’t know how I’m still breathing.

I wish I’d stop.


But it doesn’t matter, does it?

It doesn’t matter that I’ve made a fool of myself over and over again,

It doesn’t matter that my own words make me sick.

It doesn’t matter that all I can think about is that image in my head

How I know I’ll never forget realizing how stupid I am.

It doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter.

Nothing really matters, not in the end.

I’ll always do something wrong, and I’ll always hate myself for it.


I did this all to myself, really.

There is no one to blame but me.

I dared to hope,

Dared to think it could be better,

That maybe I didn’t have to wither away alone,

That maybe it didn’t have to be me against the world against myself.

I dared to believe I might ever be good enough.

And I’m not. I never will be.

Not for myself, and not for them.


But I’ll smile,

And I’ll hold my head high,

And I’ll pretend.

I will pretend with all my heart that everything is fine,

I’m doing fine,

There’s nothing wrong and no need to look closer at me,

No need to notice the cracks spiderwebbing through me, threatening to shatter,

No need to see me crumbling at the edges.


I’ll pretend I’m okay,

Since it seems to be the only thing I’m good at.

But deep down I’ll know-

I will never be happy.

And I will never change.


You stupid, stupid girl.

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