Writing Prompt

Sunday afternoon

Time to return

Class starts tomorrow

Lots to do

Driving

Dancing

Turning

Singing

Ringing

Wondering

Coincidence?

Pit stop

Travel center

_ “We’ll meet you there.”_

_ “Why? But okay.”_

Plaid shirt. Batman.

Together, at this hour?

She said you were working.

Frowns. **NOT HAPPY.**

_ “I must apologize.”_

_ ...

I _denied _every thing

I was _bargaining _with myself

I was _angry _at the world

And then got into _depressing _health

I feel I had a _loss of self _

__

I feel I could see the _reflection _

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And finally I accepted it

But there was one more thing

One thing that helped

Through these stages

Revenge...

She cant be gone,

Not yet, it’s not true.

Not when I see her everywhere

Sitting in her favorite chair.

Standing in the garden, Wind in her hair.

Though now her chair is nowhere to be found.

The silence in her room profound.

A fog of loneliness settles in,

As I walk through all the places shes been…

She isnt gone yet

Dont lie to me

Not when I still feel her next to me

In every single thing I do,

I...

Loosing everything

Loosing your mind

Losing nothing

Yet losing time

_Anger_

Anger wishing it wouldn’t

But why shouldn’t

You tried but you couldn’t

Aargh can’t rhyme the forth line!

_Depression_

Depressed day and night

Fighting a mental fight

Hurting yourself,letting you starve

Trying to forget what pain have carved

_Loss of self _

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Losing yourself,losing grip

Don’t know who yo...

(Depression, denial, reflection).

I am struck that every moment I spend with her can spontaneously be the last,

that this may be her last laugh,

her last sunset smile,

before I am left without her marigold soul.

Dusk and dawn are warring with each other, each to consume the time I'm clinging to,

because soon I will be older,

and she will be older too.

How am I to cope with that?

Maternity...

When you died,

I didn’t feel sad, maybe indifferent?

There was this child ignorance

of the permanence of death

You drifted out of my life

trying to get better

It never worked

I thought it was like that

It wasn’t.

I didn’t grieve you

not in the traditional sense

I grieved through other people

I saw your absence through the tears

of my mom

of my grandparents

of my aunts and uncles

As time ...

The wings of a butterfly

Lay crumpled at my feet

My heart begs to live

But I won’t let it beat

Because somewhere in this endless world

Somewhere your body lays

And until I get to bury you

I will keep digging that grave

So fly me away on your wings of ivory

Don’t leave me to this earth

With pulseless, ruined body

And a soul drained of mirth

If only I could have something of you

To hear your voi...

They say that dust is largely human detritus

A buildup of the wake of microscopic entropy

Trailing behind each one of us.

Regardless of decomposition, of further entropic breakdown

Some of these little pieces and some even smaller

Have surely settled into the places you’ve been-

Or have been borne up on the currents of the wind, fated to circle the earth until the sun explodes.

In both cases...

I’ve been crying a lot lately

But only in my head

A grief unborn

Like a leaky gas main

That travels underground

Snaking its way through life

Destruction unseen

If I can’t feel it

Does it really exist?

Can I weather

The lurking tidal wave

Will the dam hold?

An escaped tear

A sigh

Then back to the bargaining table

Maybe time isn’t real

What if in another dimension

Another reality

I can’t help ...

Sadness

I have so much sad in me

Born with sadness in my veins

It’s the only stable thing that goes through me

Flowing back and forth my body

Sadness is always there

Under every happy moment

There is a sadness

One I can not describe

For it is always there

When I get sad it comes in waves

But not small ones

Tsunami waves crashing inside my head

Rocking my brain and spilling out of my eyes

My sadn...