It’s impossibly ugly this sweater,

But you knew that.

Yet still you wore it each week.

No matter the weather, no matter the stares.

You wore it with pride, without a care.

Its swirling patterns and vibrant hues,

Lit up each room as did you.

I’ll never forget that smile of yours

In that ugly little sweater, dancing as the rain poured.

And the warmth of your arms,

as we watched the stars.

Or the wa...

You brought me your broken wings.

Wings built from all your excuses,

Excuses glued together by false pride.

Pride is what ruined you.

You know? the one I once held so dear.

Dear beloved, my Icarus, whose eyes shone,

Shone like the sun that doomed you..

You gave away everything.

Everything we wanted.

Wanted..thats right, it’s all in the past.

Past mistakes and choices I hope haunt you still.

Still ...

She cant be gone,

Not yet, it’s not true.

Not when I see her everywhere

Sitting in her favorite chair.

Standing in the garden, Wind in her hair.

Though now her chair is nowhere to be found.

The silence in her room profound.

A fog of loneliness settles in,

As I walk through all the places shes been…

She isnt gone yet

Dont lie to me

Not when I still feel her next to me

In every single thing I do,

I...

TW mental health

(Im okay)

I just woke up and I’m feeling numb,

To my own thoughts I wont succumb.

My mind it races all the time,

The reason why? That I cant define.

I need to distract myself and fast,

Play some music and make it last.

Because things cant always feel like this,

But thats a thought I just dismiss…

Perhaps I need some time apart,

Self Isolation. Thats a start.

Becaus...

Its been a long time

I still think about you dear

When I feel I’m lost

That is when I hold you near

Still close to my beating heart

Im sorry my love

To have left you on your own

You must love again

One day when the heartache stops

Find home in anothers heart...

My darling lover,

How I wish to hold you close.

Remind me again,

Why is it that you lay so,

So far away with me here.

My doting lover,

How I do care for you so.

But this summer heat,

Surely it has me beat and

Your form emits more indeed!...

I’m staring at my phone again,

It seems thats all I do.

I’m reading our old messages,

And thinking about you.

Im not sure why I do this still,

All it does is bring me pain.

I’m sick of sitting and missing you,

But I simply cant refrain…

Nostalgia always brings me back,

Though I try to fight it off.

I know that if you saw me now,

It’d only make you scoff.

I find myself typing once more,

But delet...

Watching…Watching…

Watching me…

That is why I cannot leave.

Every time I try to sleep,

From the shadows creatures creep.

Empty eyes and gaping maws,

Outstretched fingers filled with claws.

And though I try to call for help,

No one sees them but myself.

They tell me it’s all in my head,

I cant escape this awful dread.

The light stays on until sunrise,

Need to escape from their eyes.

All around me,...

I awaken from my bed,

Melodic singing in my head.

“Darling wont you come with me,

Ill make you feel truly free.”

Sickening shivers down my spine,

Tell myself that I’ll be fine.

“Darling I know that you can hear,

There is no need for you to fear.”

And despite my reluctant heart,

I feel the need to play the part.

Every word it draws me closer,

To my anonymous composer.

His voice growing louder still...

Love is the lie that keeps us alive,

When this really just needs to die.

Lack the self respect to walk away from this,

But it’s no ones fault but mine.

And though I know it in my heart,

Im afraid of letting go.

It seems I’d rather grip the rope,

And bare the scars alone.

Because letting go means moving on,

But I need you in my life.

Or perhaps thats just another lie,

That lingers in my mind.

We ca...