Why does it affect me

But I have you?

The burning in my stomach gives me the urge to grab the pencil and stab my self

I wanna kill my self and I dont

So the best I could do is hurt myself

I tried to give you sighns but it seems like you dont understand

And no I dont wanna say it out loud

It makes me nervous

Not in texts either

My parents check those

Preferably in something like roblox

Where my words cannot be used against me

I want to hurt

Its the only way

To live...