i swear i’m over you

i’ll say with jealousy when you talk about him

i have a crush

he isn’t you

i swear i like him

but part of me

will always love you

always yearn for you to give me

the loving i wished for

to regard me first and not second

to him

it makes me want to cry

i want him but

i also want you

i don’t want you

i can’t want you

stop it stop it stop it

my head is spinning

it’s you or him

i don’t know anymore

tears streaming down my cheeks

neither of you will love ME

why won’t you LOVE ME

why won’t he love me

tears tears tears

i’ve known you longer

but i suffered with him

save me save me save me

left

left

left

right

stop

ready halt

pain and tears he’s seen

but you have too

i want you to love me

i want him to love me