Were things right before or now

It’s like I’m upside down

Inside out

Just turning around

I’m drowning but in a drought

Trying to figure life out

All the doubt

Was life right before or now

I’m just lost in a cloud

No plans of coming down...

I’m pulled this way and that way

Like a balled up sheet that you can’t quite find the ends to

Should I go left?

Should I go right?

I don’t know

I’m too much,

Then I’m not enough

What do you want from me?

I can’t ever get it right

I can’t find my way...

Something is missing.

I'm not sure what this is. 

Like a wise person, 

I’ve sought for it in all the kingdoms

that live in me

and found only silence.

Something is not connecting.

I realized it when the dualities of my soul

faced each other and 

They were silent

However, somethings is telling me that

the secret is in the order of things.

It's as if I am the opposite of what I once was

or if I am...

What now

What am i seeing ?

Do i see the sun or the moon ?

It feels like i’m unable to compare them

Do i see love or pain ?

Maybe i should be more careful looking

Where is my sight ?

I need it back

Love made me blind

Yet i’m still running after it

What do i want ?

I’m unable to answer this question

What do I want ?

I haven’t ask myself this question for a while

What do i want ?

I’m unfa...

Everything’s changing all of a sudden

My whole world is falling apart around me

Negative thoughts take hold an start flooding

One right after the other it’s getting hard to breathe

Help me I fear I can’t see , at least not clearly

Take my hand an guide me out of this mess

I can’t do it by myself I confess...

The sky is beneath me now.

Clouds float underfoot

Like soft lies i once believed in.

The grounds has vanished

Or maybe it just stopped waiting.

I walk on ceilings

Where light fixtures blink like broken stars.

Rooms spin,

Memories fall out of drawers i never opened.

Names drip from the walls

And none of them are mine.

They say things feel wrong

When you’re not grounded.

But i was never grounde...

My heart, is left yearning

yearning for love, yearning for reason

there are more fish in the sea, my mother tells me

but each time I swim out into the great blue, Im left drowning; stuck.

My arms lash out at the violent waters.

Trying to keep my limp, but determined, body afloat.

It’s no good.

I am slowly pulled down by the force of the darkness; the bottomless depth of the sea.

why can’t I find ...

It’s the middle of summer, not winter nor fall

I’m wearing a sweatsuit - pants and all

Its so hot outside, I’m drowning in sweat

This is surely a moment I’ll never forget

I’m upside down and backwards

I’m inside out and crosswards

Sometimes I smile, sometimes I frown

I’m twisted up, I’m upside down

It’s the middle of autumn, leaves fall to the ground

Gently floating, not making a sound

I arrive ...

I’ve fallen for it, the money.

Pick me up, honey.

I’m telling you more than I know,

This is is all I’ve got for show.

There’s not way out,

I hit, scream and shout.

Rescue me,

It was only a bad knee....

I can’t believe they decided to hang me

I’m slanging like a piece of butcher meat

Swaying in the breeze

Hung by the tippy toes of my feet

All because I said Little Cesars has the pizza

I’m upside down....