The last time I saw him was just moments before his death.

I could see it in his distant eyes, in the shallow rise of his breath.

He tried to pretend — to put on a brave face — but it was no use. I knew him too well to be deceived.

It was his tongue that gave it away: the slow rubbing on his top right teeth while he told me it would be okay.

Ever since my father’s passing, I haven’t been able to ...

I am watching the clock and realize that it is almost that time. That time that I dread, and you may ask why and I’ll tell you. I have this one thing to go to sleep, but it isn’t safe, and I have needed it as long as I can remember. Let me tell you before I head upstairs to go get this one thing.

When I was younger I had trouble falling asleep. My mother use to put me down for bed, and lock the d...

I’m so tired

But I can’t go to sleep

Lost in a mire

He’s such a creep

Need to be calm

Can’t stop thinking

Something is wrong

Eyes won’t stop blinking...

Sleep

Creep

Deep

Leap

Fly

Why

Try

Cry

Worry

Hurry

Scurry

Flurry

Pray

Stay

Lay

Day...

Feather always fall off but never did mysteriously disappear in this world

I walk everyday with a smile towards the path that holds between me and emotions

How long does this journey last and why does it feel so lasting already

Stand by and say bye today because tomorrow it’s another day to reality check...

Before I went under the covers and snuggle my self in. Right in the moment I realized I can’t sleep without my journal, yes the journal that helps me with my thoughts to study in the morning, the journal that comforts me when down and hollow, the journal that has all recordings and documents of all the events I seen. I need my journal, that’s the only way I function. I look every where for it, und...

June 10th, 2022 - 2 weeks before the incident

It wasn’t uncommon to drive around with Ezra for fun and with no pre-planned destination. That’s what we always did, especially in the summer. As soon as he had gotten his license, and saved up enough for a car, Ezra was always on the road, and always dragging me along with him. Loud music was a given, and good times were always the unplanned plan. ...

For my fifteenth birthday, I’d decided I was going to buy myself my own gift. Something I’d use but didn’t exactly need (I had a habit of buying things I wouldn’t use). This weighted cheetah kept me grounded through far too many breakdowns in four years. My mother asked me if I was sure about getting a stuffed animal for myself. I had already dressed this stuffed animal, Gertrude I named her, in a...

I cant go to sleep

Without writing

So I am writing

so I can sleep...

“So, Dr. Wellborough, you ready to tell me what happened to Polly?” Det. Hardacre asked.

Detective Austin handed the suspect a coffee, milk with two sugars. She served her partner, Hardacre, his drink and then meekly took a seat at the conference table. She picked up her notepad. After taking a sip, the doctor gave an approving nod.

“My wife been so emotionally unbalanced lately. I surmise in ...