“You aren’t living, you are just surviving.”

“Please talk to me.”

“You know you can tell me anything?”

“You scared me.”

I’m scared

I scare myself

Surviving isn’t living

But I’m alive

I miss her.

Not her.

Younger me.

She fought

She didn’t believe

Said she wouldn’t make it to sixteen

Now watching

As I drag myself to eighteen next

I’m trying

I’m hurting

I’m angry

I’m done.

Is she proud I ma...

Hang out with us

You are annoying

I’m annoying

You aren’t, I promise

She promised. That didn’t work.

_ _I wouldn’t want to be a pain

Don’t be silly

** **Stop being silly

Are you sure?

Of course, meet us tomorrow

Don’t

Okay...

I stopped.

‘I’m better’ I announce, proud

Everyone cheers, they are proud too

I think

But I don’t smile

I stare, confused

Scared

Alone

As the faces disappear from everyone

How can I tell sincerity when I have a reaction but no expression

The cheering fades, and then

Click

Darkness, the room swallows me whole

I fall into the pit of nothing

As empty space suffocates me

I thought my eyes were o...

The room is dark, lights out

As she sits in her chair

Wrapped in blankets

Hearing aids in a loose grip on her lap

The room flashes with lights from outside

Colours of reds and purples, blues and yellows

The soundless patterns and paintings

Decorating the sky once again

The fireworks show memories,

Shapes of sparks in the sky that resemble people, places, actions, and words

Her grandson sits ou...

I drew a heart on my wrist

With the ink pen you gave me when I left

But the tip was too thin and scratchy

And all the effort into the heart made my skin turn red

The heart carves its way into my wrist

The same way your face is carved in my mind

The way you looked at me

When you saw me for the first time in two years

The annoyed, hateful, expressionless face

You stared at me with

Before turning a...

In a world where you are the sun

You burn bright for everyone to see

Showing your love and beauty for everyone to see

And I feel selfish for thinking it could have been for me

In a world where you are the sun

Giving light and hope to those below

Showing strength and forgiveness to those below

Casting a shadow over me with your glow

In a world where you are the sun

I am Icarus with arms stretched...

I am a vampire

I can look in the mirror and nothing stares back at me

For I am a vampire and they have no reflection

I am a vampire

I am used to the sight of blood

Though not blood that takes a life but allows for other life to be created

I am a vampire

I crave the dark

My curtains don’t open and I don’t go outside

I am a vampire

Society fears me

With their beliefs and ideologies

That the...

You are like the ocean

No matter how many times

You try to drown me

I always come back

And try again...

Hey.

I’ve been staring at this blank page long enough, I just can’t put what I want to say into words. You fill my mind every chance you get whether it’s intentional or not.

I don’t even know what I want to say to you. It’s kind of funny how I’ve been thinking of you for months, had dreams where you were back with me, and randomly think about everything we did together. Yet when I finally write...

A sweet sixteen is not so sweet

When I wish for it to be discreet

But it’s a celebration, I am no longer a kid

But i’m not an adult, god forbid

Eighteen is when I cross that line

Isn’t sixteen supposed to be my prime?

How can it be when so many difficulties await

Leaving me to sit here and contemplate

So what am I supposed to do?

The thoughts that surround me are all so new

I fear for the chan...