And if I die before I wake

I pray the Lord my soul to…..

Wait.

I know somethings wrong when I don’t wake up in my bed that morning. A prayer, from the documentary I watched before bed, trailing off in my mind is the last thing I remember.

But I do wake up and it feels like I was never sleeping. I’m wide awake, I have never felt so awake, so conscious, aware, alert, so…sensational!

My whole ...

Before you start

This is not for the faint of heart

Not a story for the frail

A hellish tale with a holy grail

Late at night around 2 or 3

A 15 year old girl leaves a party

Walks to the subway on her own

A lil drunk but knows her way home

You know what’s coming

Won’t beat around the bush

As she walks past an alley

She feels a sharp push

It’s quickly to late

There’s no time to turn around

W...

When one mixes baking soda and vinegar;

A good person will tell the ppl close by that it’s about to explode and to take a step back.

It’s just an honest experiment right?

A bad person says no word, watches it explode and laughs at the ones who didn’t step away in time....

The flames were eager.

Too eager, as they engulf the forest beside my house.

Our house.

Every penny poured into the barn red siding and that matching playhouse for Lincoln.

It was simply astonishing how quickly it happened. Simple, yet astonishing.

Reminding us how fire works, that fire thrives.

Not the controlled candle on the coffee table.

Real, hot, alive, and hungry.

How fast it ...

Rocking, rocking, all the day

Rocking, rocking, time away

My sweet baby

She’s my darling

My sweet baby

She’s my love

My sweet baby

How I love her

How I love her so

Rocking, rocking…...

I see Red

So do you

What is Red

Red flows through

Flows through the body

A cut makes it spill

Don’t spill to much

To much spill will kill

Red on the walls

Red on the floor

Red on the ceiling

Is that Red in the drawer

What if that Red wanted to go

How can you stop an unstoppable flow

Why is it Red, what does Red mean

Does this Red really want to be freed

Maybe it does

Would it hurt if that’s...

Is this feeling new

Cuz it feels just like before

But that one was through

Is this something even more

Or will this be like before...

Don’t know what's been up with you

But I know you’re not the same

Not sure why you act like this

By now it’s not a game

I could never read your mind

Would never know what’s wrong

Of course you’d never tell me

So determined to stay strong

I’m sorry we can’t change that quick

And you’re stubbern as fuck

I can't always be the one to cave

So I quess we're kinda stuck

Writing this reminds me

Of ...

You know my thoughts but that’s okay

You look at me I look away

Cuz in your eyes I see what’s true

Why I could never be with you

Was all you fault, you made it start

Played with my mind and with my heart

I was young and saw no harm

Falling deeper for your charm

We fell hard, didn’t take long

Had so much fun, the passion strong

On and off, every time I’d mend

But easily fall in, over and over a...

It’s her birthday. She blows out 23 candles. Imagining 244 more. They wouldn’t fit anyway, she laughs at herself and shakes her head as she pushes away the crazy thought. How could all her birthdays fit on one cake?

I mean, the cake would have to be massive but also the people eating it would need to know why. Of course they won’t, they can’t and never will. She knows that. But still grabs her c...