Drinking and smoking are my twin flames

From the moment of drinking to the moment of inhaling

I can not separate the two

For they act as the same a distraction from life

As I wither away another casualty of feeling to much in this world

Taking a shot is a lot easier when you are used to pain

The burn of the liquor slowly erases my own embers

As I let the fire take its course down my throat ...

Healing and decaying go hand in hand

I learned this through you and your selfish desires

From the late nights you spent driving around screaming my name

As I was clueless to your new obsession

For I had thought to have ended our flame

Despite the strain it had given me I didn’t block you no I allowed your decay to creep in

Reassuring my friends you were fine even as you pushed me to ruin

H...

They got ride of the carpet in the bathroom

Tore it from the floor as the contractor laughed at those neon red hearts

Told me it was an old people thing

How it used to be trendy in the 70’s

You two bought that house in the 70’s

Saved every penny so your two boys could live in that house

Furnished the building yourselves

You told me when I was a kid

How you made this house for family and fr...

People say a fighter is born

That certain people are meant to battle the world

For they were born to hold the grief in their blood

And the spirit of the warrior is reborn

Such an odd thing to think

Yet people call me a fighter as the cheer me on

Prompting my rage with their howling

As I pick myself up once more

Clashing against my opponent as I scream to the heavens

For they created me d...

Left right down up

Upside down or right side up

Is a tree falling or flying

Is it possible for birds to be falling

Gravity is taking its toll

I am flying but my friends are screaming

Right down up left

Left or right which is which

Am I right for being left

Or am I left for being right

My friends are screaming

Gravity has taken over

Do I remember how to scream

Down up left right

Dow...

Hollow words leave nothing but decay

I have lived so long in rot filled relationships

I can smell it a mile away

From smiles across the room I can see the corroded teeth

I know the act of lying is a necessity for living

But I have left those crumbling friendships for something better

Through the act of accepting myself

I have found friendships of moral equality

Were the growth of the many...

Sharp eyes that screamed danger

As her hair was left a twisted mess

Remind me of Medusa

With lips painted in a blood red

As her talon claws cradled me into her freezing body

For my sister was always a scary being

Her skin was nothing but paper thin

With scars outlining her body

A reminder of who she once was

My sister was not made for my childhood dreams

Instead her love pushed me into ...

Bruises littered my skin

Oil on my self destructive canvas

As I kept creeping onward

Pushing past my limits to the very end

A punch to the liver

Just another layer to my canvas

As I painted away

Carving my body to fit the mold of my passions

The bruises that littered my body echoed to the world I was fighting

Tested by those that have already made it

As they looked to see if I had the ...