Starting to end

Ending to start

Forever in a loop

I cannot escape

Forgive me mom

Forgive me dad

Your daughter is not

The one you wished

I lose and I cry

I lose and I scream

Yet I will not relent

A sacrifice I must give

So I keep going

My body mine to use

So I continue to abuse

My body is a battering ram

I push and push

Never relenting

I will burn my body for it all

Yet it is neve...

Golden brow laid in sunlight

Hair blazing bright as a roaring fire

Sleeping in a silver cradle

She was born a master piece

Each step a declaration of beauty

She walks with elegance to her right

Grace follows on the left

She wore them as jewels

With a crown of glass dripping her blood

The light reflecting on her head

Hide her tear streaks

The hall was hers

An inheritance of her sacri...

A pond without a duck

A path without a way

That is my gardens weight

it is a raccoon without mischief

A bird without flight

A tiger without a pounce

That is my gardens absence

For I am always missing my existence

So I walk this path and I follow my garden

Living in wonder as I search for my woe

So as I wither without a retort

Hear my call and follow my court

As I lay down the path

Wi...

Does it start with fireworks

Red white and blue

Children running around in the streets

Or does it start with friends

Driving through town

Grabbing poppers and sparklers

As we frantically hide the liquor

In the green cooler

Is freedom a celebration

Or an act of living

Push pops melting out the tube

As we frantically looked at the sky

Waiting for a crackle and sizzle

As lights pop...

A paradox of biter resentment

Choking on possibility

Hollow and silent aching in fear

As the girl realized she was born wrong

For she could describe her life in one word inadequate

Tripping through life with the bruises of the past holding her back

The girl bleed in ink and wept onto paper

For that was all she had

So as she followed along to the expectations of life

She felt her bones sc...

An echo of light a flicker of hope

In its presence I am cradled by the light

The safe harbor in the darkness of the night

It is in the cusp of this light I begin to feel a sadness creep in

As I must leave the light of the streetlights

Trading it instead for the warmth of home

My gaze goes up

For I am forced to say goodbye once more

I know I will meet these lights once more

The sadness s...

Drinking and smoking are my twin flames

From the moment of drinking to the moment of inhaling

I can not separate the two

For they act as the same a distraction from life

As I wither away another casualty of feeling to much in this world

Taking a shot is a lot easier when you are used to pain

The burn of the liquor slowly erases my own embers

As I let the fire take its course down my throat ...

Healing and decaying go hand in hand

I learned this through you and your selfish desires

From the late nights you spent driving around screaming my name

As I was clueless to your new obsession

For I had thought to have ended our flame

Despite the strain it had given me I didn’t block you no I allowed your decay to creep in

Reassuring my friends you were fine even as you pushed me to ruin

H...

They got ride of the carpet in the bathroom

Tore it from the floor as the contractor laughed at those neon red hearts

Told me it was an old people thing

How it used to be trendy in the 70’s

You two bought that house in the 70’s

Saved every penny so your two boys could live in that house

Furnished the building yourselves

You told me when I was a kid

How you made this house for family and fr...

People say a fighter is born

That certain people are meant to battle the world

For they were born to hold the grief in their blood

And the spirit of the warrior is reborn

Such an odd thing to think

Yet people call me a fighter as the cheer me on

Prompting my rage with their howling

As I pick myself up once more

Clashing against my opponent as I scream to the heavens

For they created me d...