Starting to end

Ending to start

Forever in a loop

I cannot escape

Forgive me mom

Forgive me dad

Your daughter is not

The one you wished

I lose and I cry

I lose and I scream

Yet I will not relent

A sacrifice I must give

So I keep going

My body mine to use

So I continue to abuse

My body is a battering ram

I push and push

Never relenting

I will burn my body for it all

Yet it is never enough

Screaming and losing

I cannot escape

Forgive me father

I am not the kid you wanted

Bruises of my past abuse

Scars across my arms

I will give anything to win

So call me callous

Call me weak

I will not relent

Till I bleed gold

For that is my hearts pursuit

Forgive me mother

I am not the girl you raised

Abusing to live

Living to abuse

I will not stop

For to stop is to give up

And we both know

I am to stubborn

To live without pain

So I give to take

And I take to give

My sacrifice will not relent

For living without pain

Is torture on its own

So I fight and I sacrifice

My body is mine to contort

Forgive me

I am not the girl I should be

No

I am the girl I was raised to be

So I scarifice to live

For living without pain

Is a life in anguish