I never wanted to write my goodbyes .

But you'll learn no one ever ties loose ends .

This life tends to make you lose friends .

Even blood isn't enough to mend .

My family was rough expecting me to turn out tough .

But the truth is i was never going to be enough .

I wrote this letter so i felt a bit better .

That i'll be remembered for something more than just a bit of gore .

For maybe then you'll see all the clues i gave before .

I'm not going to document why i even have to try .

I'm not gonna spend any more years shedding tears .

I don't want to wait another day wishing to be okay !

I'm sorry , your never going to be proud .

I know you said death should never be allowed .

I hope you never have to read this out loud .