TW: suicide, SH, a vent poem!!

What are these voices in my head?

Telling me I am better off dead?

Talking about how I would killmyself

Wpuld it be hanging?

Or overdose?

Who knows?

I don’t want to

But some days I wonder who really sees me

While I sit there

Crying over my tears

Do you see me?

I am screaming

It’s getting worse

The time is never ending

I just want to see me bleeding

I want that sensation

Trying to act fine

In a world filled of lies

Will never seem the same

Caus everything is lies

And I feel I am alone

Even though I am not

Just want a hug

But don’t wanna ask

I don’t wanna seek attention

But I feel like I am

With every cut I do

It feels like I am being attention

I can’t help but scream inside

I want to hide away

The signs are there

And I am getting worse

With everything I do

I can’t help it

I want to cry

But the tears dont come

But my heart screams

I need to talk to someone

I don’t want to bother my friends anymore

I talked to much about my problems to them

I don’t want to be a bother

They say I won’t be

But I feel I am

What made me like this?

What me this way?

I wasn’t like this in April

But in April two days before Easter

Is when everything

Fell down

And it will never be the same again

Want peace of mind

And I get it

For a while

Cause then

Suddenly it’s over