I’m going to the beach soon

And honestly I am scared

I have acne all over my face

And my back is much worse

I can’t wear makeup or jewelry in the water

How will i feel safe

In the sense that i won’t feel like me

People will see my stretch marks, people will see the way my legs turn purple when i stand

People will see the fat and the rolls

will it turn them away?

I know i don’t weigh too much

I am only a size eight

But i get down in the dumps

When showing my body comes in to play

And i have hurt all day

So my anxiety is on high

Almost had a panic attack at costco

But I’m fine now

I am going to the beach with my best friend

We will eat shrimp snd share a bed

Ride a ferris wheel and swim till we feel dead

and trust me i am excited

But i also have not been to the beach since my health got worse

Since sometimes it hurts to stand

And i almost faint in the heat

But i am scared of how people will veiw me

In my floral bikini

The good

And the natural parts of me