BagelRat

I should spice up my pf so here we go.. Hi!!! My name is Maggie I’m clinically depressed as you can see from my writings. I’m lesbian. 🏳️‍🌈 okay I’m making myself cringe I’m done…

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BagelRat

I should spice up my pf so here we go.. Hi!!! My name is Maggie I’m clinically depressed as you can see from my writings. I’m lesbian. 🏳️‍🌈 okay I’m making myself cringe I’m done…

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4wxm1czj4shavuseonv6tz?si=xkwm73lytqgpx46xblrqjq&pi=u-xl2mmj3lt1ir

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She Doesn’t Know

BagelRat

1 min read

She doesn’t know

I told her how I felt and she made me feel useless.

More useless than a candy wrapper or a broken toy.

She doesn’t know why I hate my birthdays.

She doesn’t know why I sit awake at night.

She doesn’t know why I hate boys.

She doesn’t know what each scar represents.

She doesn’t know how many of them are from her.

She doesn’t know how much I hate myself.

She doesn’t...

Poetry

Shower Thoughts

BagelRat

1 min read

I sit here with just the water as my noise

No music

No audiobook

Just ruining water

I can only think about you

Nothing can stop me from thinking of you

Not even the shampoo in my eyes

I sit here and wonder

I wonder what it’s like to have you

To hold you in my arms

To kiss you

To feel my heart racing because of you

So I sit here

In the warm shower

With only you in my head…...

Poetry

Identity Crisis

BagelRat

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Why am I obsessing over a guy when I’m a lesbian… He’s my old friend from a long time ago. The sweetest guy I use to know. We grew apart after school ended. Ughhhhh I can’t writeeeeee this stupid guy is all I can think about...

Love…

BagelRat

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The way you describe love makes me jealous. I wish someone actually cared for me like that. I want another relationship. But they always end. I don’t want pain but I want you. You remind me so much of an amazing person I lost. But I’m “too young” for you… you only see me as a sister.. but why, why do you smile at me like that. That’s not normal… or maybe it is. Maybe I’m overreacting. But I want y...

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Change

BagelRat

1 min read

I dyed my hair pink

Think of changing my name

Gonna get tattoos to hide my pain

Changing my style just for others

Maybe this is me…...

Poetry

Waiting

BagelRat

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Time passes so slowly when we’re apart but fast when we’re near. I see the way you smile because of me. I wish you could admit it if you had feelings for me. No friend would do the things you do to me. When I feel asleep on your shoulder you let me stay. No friend would do that…. Until next year “friend”.....

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The Job

BagelRat

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If I want this I have to survive. But how can I when I look like this. I can’t even put pills in my body. I don’t want to keep answering the questions about my scars. I don’t want to be this way. But just for the thought of saving someone. A innocent life. I have to continue this is my dream. I want to be there on peoples worse days. Putting the fire out. But I’m killing myself by living....

Alone

BagelRat

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Blasting music trying to feel something. Depression like a light switch. My biggest fear when I was long was being alone but that’s all I want to be now. I just want to be alone. This thoughts get deadlier each day. Soon just soon I’ll be gone....

Mom

BagelRat

1 min read

You never listen to me when I tell you. I’m not okay and all you say is therapy. Therapy doesn’t work. It’s not going to magically fix my depression or my scars. He’ll all of this is because of what you’ve done. I get your trying but shipping me off to camps every week isn’t helping. Im trying my best to stay. I just have to wait till my birthday…...

Red Hair

BagelRat

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I want you so bad but I can’t have you. Your going to move away and call someone else home. I wish you could lay in my arms like you let your friends do. I wish it was possible. Your so sweet and I’ll never forget you and your voice. I just wish we could have shared a lifetime together....