I don’t think I actually like men

My friend turned to me and said

Muse

I don’t think you like men at all

I thiugh about it for weeks before the comment

And now it constantly occupies my head

And I don’t know how to answer the question

It was scary to come out once

And this was a huge fear

Of what if I am wrong

I don’t know if i like men

I know i came out as bi

And I was confident in that label

Or at least I pretended to be

Now I don’t actually know the real me

I wish I knew the answer

I wish I had a label

I wish it wasn’t hard

I don’t know if i am forcing myself To say I like men

Because I know i would prefer a woman

I don’t know what to do

And I don’t think I actually like men