TW!!!! Mentions of bullying and death

It still affects me.

Though it shouldn’t affect me,

The day they said it should have been me.

The day they said I was unworthy,

The day they said it should have been me:

Should have been me that died.

Should it still bother me

Almost four years ago it happened

Should be over it,

Right?

I will always feel bad for the girl,

That actually suffered the loss,

Of someone dear to her.

But I will never support her friend,

Who turned to be and said:

“It should have been you instead”

But why would you say that to a kid?

Why would you say that as a kid?

Why would you even think that?

I don’t know what i did to them,

To make them hate me,

Oh so much.

But to this day I still think

Everyone has a problem or something to say

About my very existence