“What did you do?”

What did I do?

I told someone something I wasn’t allowed to and now they told you.

How you were off your meds and causing me a panic attack after you ran around a restaurant and sexually assaulting me and my boyfriend as a joke.

As compensation you said “oh she lied I just _poked_ her boyfriends ass”

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“What did you do”

I started struggling with my eating

“Just force it down and forget the feeling of throwing up” said my best friend since that’s how she deals with her eating disorder.

What if I want something that causes me pain?

But what if I go to dinner with my friends or boyfriends parents and I can’t finish a meal.

What would they think?

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“What did you do?”

“Stop hurting yourself Katherine.” He says as I pick at my skin during a panic attack.

How he helps me when he doesn’t know shit about any of this.

Just comforting words and making me laugh when he says I should go to the hospital.

Why did I press scissors against my hand?

Why did I stop because I didn’t want to go in a “bad” direction?

I stopped to not be sent to a horror of a recovery hospital my “friend” was sent too.

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“What did you do?”

Why am I being ignored?

Why did i stop reaching out and you won’t bother talking to me unless it’s your convenience?

You pick our other friend for every single thing in our class unless you don’t want to work.

Why not me?

What did I do, to you?

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“What did you do?”

Why am I wanting to die and why have I said I love you and done some thing with you because I trust you.

For you to say “I love you, i want to be with you forever”

Will you ever find this?

Will my friends on this app get back on and find this?

Just for me to want to leave.

To leave not _just_ you.

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**“What do ****_I_**** do”**