"Hes awake"someone shouted

I'm laying here completely clueless

"Sir can you hear me?"

"Just fine"i say in a sigh

"Micheal you were in a coma for almost 4 years"

"Where's kayla"

"Kayla is just fine just she doesnt know you honey"

Doesnt know me?

Those words kept repeating in my head

Doesnt know me?

What do you mean?

Til it came over me.

Memory loss.

Tears run down my face as I try to think of any other possible option but memory loss is the only one I truly feel could fit for this situation.

"Can I go back to sleep?"

"No we have to run some tests and then maybe you will get sent home"

Fuck this shit life is already boring

4 years

I could have a kid right now but no right when things get good it all comes crashing down

"JUST FUCKING KILL ME ALREADY"

the room fell scilent

I wasnt embarrassed I had 3 nurses rush towards me so I got up and left

"SEE YA LATER CHICKS" i ran out of there like a mad man

No one stopped me I felt free....

Fuck this shit I'm going to the bar

I mean do I even have an id

I mean I'm 21 now right

I dont know how this shit works

I step into the bar*

There is see it kayla and maddie along with someone else

"KAYLA"i scream as I run towards her

Maddie stopped me

Kayla looked confused

"What are you doing here sleepy head?" She said as she played with my black hair

"Getting back whats mine"

"And how do you plan to do that"she says manipulative

I reach for kayla as she pulls back

"SHE DOESNT FUCKING LOVE YOU"maddie yells as she slams her beer bottle on my head

"BUT-"i say desperate and out of breath

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE YOU WEAK PUSSY"

I shamely listen to her as a walk to the front door getting dirty looks the hole time

But this is my one chance to get her

And I fucked it up

WHY AM I LIKE THIS

I wish that fucking exit door was the exit to life

I walk to the woods

In hopes I get lost and die of starvation or get eaten by a bear.

"Fuck life"i repeat to myself as I see where it all began

The ledge.

The ledge. The same size as a 3 story building leading to just trees beneath it.

I shut my eyes as my feet dangled over the edge I was too exhausted to care about dyeing so I slept

3:46 A.M

I wake up to feel my hand being held and being atleast 3 feet away from the ledge

"Ah, your up"

"Sorry but who the fuck are you"i question in concern

"Sorry im amy, I saw you sleeping and it looked like you were gonna fall so I dragged you over here, sorry"she says as she let's go of my hand

"Should of let me fall" i say in a deep tone

"What?"she questions

"Nothing...."

"Hey your kinda cute.."she says staring deep into my hazel eyes

I blush as I giggle a bit

Was this my chance.

"How old are you?" i ask quietly

"I'm 19 i turn 20 in a few days"she says with her beautiful voice

"I'm 21 i turn 22 in a few days also"

"When?!"

"July 22" I say confused

"SAME" she yells as she laughs and grabs my hand

I love her.

Her energy .

Her shiny dark black hair.

Her brown eyes.

Her...

I wanted to die

She saved me

I dont care that it's been only 10 minutes

I was gonna fall of that ledge but my perspective changed

Im falling in love.

I slowly blink I dont want to stop looking at her

"I love you"it slipped out of my mouth

She grabbed and hugged me

It was like saying I love you with actions

She saw the blood on my arm and covered it with her hand.

She's respectful

She didn't kiss me

She just hugged me

She respects me and everything i am

I truly love her

"I love you"she whispers into my ear

The stars in the sky lit up

And the moon seemed as if it was saying your welcome

She was what I needed

Someone clean

But could understand me

Someone who could tell me no without hurting me

Someone who I could love freely

No more drugged love

Amy is the one I need

Real love.....