Too jaded

By the dark in my mind,

I’ve waited,

For shadows to pass by.

Too cold,

Barefoot in my own snow,

How bold;

You think this ice will go?

No, you don’t love me,

No, you don’t care—

I wouldn’t believe you,

No matter how long I stare.

Too scared

Of bathing in the sunlight,

Out blared,

The sobs of hate that feel right.

Too hurt,

Bruised and beaten by my own fists,

Insert

Your optimism; you’ll be pissed

You have to be lying,

Are you bold or just cruel?,

Those are lies I can’t believe,

A “virus” I must duel.

No, you can’t really love me;

I’m a burden in your eyes,

Every time you hammer it in,

It’s nothing but a surprise.

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Not doing another life update because no one cared last time 😭 /hj