I have seen so many things

I wish to not have seen

My eyes have grazed upon

The grass of poison feilds

I have seen the words spewed of of throats

Said before thinking

But layed out for torture

Never never roped back in

I have seen my pain

The way the ache pulsates through me

Evelops me in dread

Somehow avoiding leaving me for dead

I have seen the world fall apart

A puzzle being stowed away

In the time and space

Of existence

I have seen my legs shake

As I gasp for air

begging to be able to seem normal

Longing for a way to not panic

I have seen too many hospital rooms

I am so used to needles

But pain does not affect

A body that doesn’t care

I have seen so much

Is it even worth seeing anymore

Or should I wish upon a star

“I wish I could go blind”