anxiety is hard when

my breath catches in my throat and my

heart runs miles a minute in my chest

anxiety is hard when i’m scared to be alone,

scared of what the silence says

anxiety is hard when my friends are all busy

or don’t want to talk about it

or don’t treat it like it is

axiety is hard when i wonder

if i can talk to the one person im desperate to

talk to

but i dont think i can because she doesn’t want

to hear about it anymore

anxiety is hard when im too scared to alone

so i sit on a facetime call

with the two of you and listen to you be happy

anxiety is hard when i try to find excuses for it,

caffeine or tests or homework

and it’s even harder when people can’t see

through them

anxiety is hard when i don’t want to ask for help,

don’t want to draw attention,

don’t want to seek it

but i am, that’s exactly what im doing

because i need the attention

i need someone to see and

someone to feel and

someone to help

anxiety is hard when i pretend to not know

how hard it really is